1st real post in a while
I decided I wanted to write an actual update... something I rarely do :P So Christmas was really nice, pretty relaxed overall. I worked on Christmas Eve and on New Year's Eve, but both days ended up being ok cuz I had fun after work, esp. on New Year's. Vacation was of course too short.
Midterms are coming up freakishly fast... and so is 2nd semester. I'm definitely not looking forward to midterms... especially Bio which will be like being bashed over the head with the names of enzymes and processes that I never fully learned.
I'm very excited for senior year. I've started to come to terms with the fact that yes, I will have to suffer through five more months of high school. I plan on enjoying the time that I have with my AMAZING friends the best I possibly can, because my friends are really truly the best friends ever. I'm looking foreward to Mr. DHS, The Film Festival, February vacation for hanging out with friends and for perhaps skiing (if we ever get snow), my birthday (for which I actually plan on having a party... a large one), April Vacation for mayyybe a Canada trip, Variety Show, Prom, Senior Banquet, Graduation and (maybe) Project Graduation. This 2nd half of the year looks like it'll really be fun and sad at the same time. I cannot wait to be done with high school itself, but I'm really worried that once we've graduated, groups of friends will have trouble connecting still.
Lately I've been really discontent with high school in general. The ridiculous pettyness of many of my peers has really been affecting me lately. I realize that this pettyness and shallowness that is bothering me is not confined to adolescents, which is what has been saddening me. Girls in high school are often especially awful people. Perhaps it's because they don't know how to react to what's going on around them and the stresses of their lives, and I'll be the first to admit that I can be very bitchy at times too, but I at least attempt to not be and when I am I attempt to fix what I may have screwed up. Throughout high school I've become increasingly disillusioned with my fellow peers and I've become increasingly cynical about it, but it's never hit me as hard as it has this year. I've seen my friends continuously burned by those who were their good friends, and have been so myself, this year especially. I will admit that I've had relatively good luck in my avoidance of pettyness, but the effects of it are really affecting me suddenly. It feels as if, well, if this many people are awful people now, will they ever get better? and if they don't, these are the people that I will have to deal with and who will be so-called "adults" in a few short years. I've come to realize that adulthood does not simply mean someone who's over 18 or 21 and who has a job and lives on their own, but rather someone who can take into consideration the needs and feelings of others and come to a compromise with those needs of others and their own ambitions.
Midterms are coming up freakishly fast... and so is 2nd semester. I'm definitely not looking forward to midterms... especially Bio which will be like being bashed over the head with the names of enzymes and processes that I never fully learned.
I'm very excited for senior year. I've started to come to terms with the fact that yes, I will have to suffer through five more months of high school. I plan on enjoying the time that I have with my AMAZING friends the best I possibly can, because my friends are really truly the best friends ever. I'm looking foreward to Mr. DHS, The Film Festival, February vacation for hanging out with friends and for perhaps skiing (if we ever get snow), my birthday (for which I actually plan on having a party... a large one), April Vacation for mayyybe a Canada trip, Variety Show, Prom, Senior Banquet, Graduation and (maybe) Project Graduation. This 2nd half of the year looks like it'll really be fun and sad at the same time. I cannot wait to be done with high school itself, but I'm really worried that once we've graduated, groups of friends will have trouble connecting still.
Lately I've been really discontent with high school in general. The ridiculous pettyness of many of my peers has really been affecting me lately. I realize that this pettyness and shallowness that is bothering me is not confined to adolescents, which is what has been saddening me. Girls in high school are often especially awful people. Perhaps it's because they don't know how to react to what's going on around them and the stresses of their lives, and I'll be the first to admit that I can be very bitchy at times too, but I at least attempt to not be and when I am I attempt to fix what I may have screwed up. Throughout high school I've become increasingly disillusioned with my fellow peers and I've become increasingly cynical about it, but it's never hit me as hard as it has this year. I've seen my friends continuously burned by those who were their good friends, and have been so myself, this year especially. I will admit that I've had relatively good luck in my avoidance of pettyness, but the effects of it are really affecting me suddenly. It feels as if, well, if this many people are awful people now, will they ever get better? and if they don't, these are the people that I will have to deal with and who will be so-called "adults" in a few short years. I've come to realize that adulthood does not simply mean someone who's over 18 or 21 and who has a job and lives on their own, but rather someone who can take into consideration the needs and feelings of others and come to a compromise with those needs of others and their own ambitions.