Fuck Camping
Fuck him! Fuck her! Fuck them! Just fuck it all... I'm so tired of giving my all. I'm so tired of believing everyone's lies. I'm just tired. He is a douche bag... why I fell so hard, so fast... it's not clear to me... but the douche bagness is clear to me now. One month of no talking to me unless via text ala one word RESPONSES to me... fuck that shit. He could've said we're done... no mas... it was just a fling. But no. No words to give me closure... just silence. Dark fucking silence... always me waiting for more... one more call, one more text, one more kiss, one more time... fuck it. Back down this tunnel I go... into the downward spiral of depression that I'm so acustomed to... putting the thoughts in my head down here just make me look dramatic... but they're ricocheting back and forth in my mind like stray bullets and I want them out. I'm surrounded by couples... I love them but I'm hurting inside. There's no escape from them if I don't want myself to drown in my room alone and completely dwell on the shit. All of the shit... I miss JJ... I miss him... I wish I had wings... I need some serious feel-better time... Maybe I'll just go to the beach... not go in the water tho cuz of my new tat on my back... but water and the ocean are so soothing for me... so yea... wow this post came out kinda angry... bye...
<3
~Jenny~
<3
~Jenny~