Last one for the Weekend...

[musicfancy]

Well guys this is my last post until I get home Monday. I will be in out of touch for a few days. Don't worry I will catch back up on everyone when I get back. AkivaPilot will be staying at my apartment, watching my kittens while I am gone. Glad about that one. I trust him greatly with this kind of stuff, though I want to trust him with more, like my heart and soul but he doesn't want it, I guess. Sad sad sad! I miss being with him. I felt safe and happy, now I am lost and confused, oh wait and stressed beyond belief but that isn't his fault. That is just life. I still really wish that we get back together same day. I have even tried to look at him differnetly and look at others but it isnt working. i don't know what that means. It may seem that I need more time or something else which I still wish for. Who knows. I guess only time can tell. Who knows what is gong though his head. I know I don't have any idea. I do know that he is obsessed with WOW. I wonder if he is ever going to get sick of it and actually hang out with me again. It seems like Jax and WOW are the only things he cares about now. I am pushed to the side. He doesn't even call me anymore. I wonder if he would have even remembered he is supposed to come over tonight if I hadn't called and left a message for him. I doubt it. Why did I get pushed to the side anyway? I have tried only to care for him and take care of him. Sometimes I wonder. The only real attention I have gotten from him is when it comes to certain moments, (details or anything lese of this is between me and him). I don't know and I can't let myself stress over it anyway.
I better go people, i will takl to yall when I get back. Oh I will post pics of my new living room when I get back if I can burrow AkivaPilot's camera. Leter peeps!!