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Sang at church this morning. It was sort of random....11 o'clock mass is weird because it's so much less chill and there are so many people there. I talked to Matt and Nancy Veronesi and Michelle Castelli and the new Matt's-other-half named...Nathan? I like him a lot. He's really young; he looks like he's in high school, but I know he's an Eastman student. I think I freaked him out a little. Sometimes I talk too much. So he's definitely a really good pianist and whatever. But I was so confused today. I mean, he's not Matt. He's not a musical god just because...like, no one is, and he's just different. It's hard to sing with different people, you know? So he'd play a different intro or something, and me being the loser I am, would screw up. I only really sounded silly once, though. The rest of the mass went pretty well. It was sort of nervewracking, new-ish music, lots of people, a new pianist/organist. But it was ok. Today was one of those I'm-magically-already-warmed-up days. Woooo. And we did a psalm I really like, Psalm 34. The song version of it, I mean. The actual psalm is alright. I dressed like a maniac today too...I was a maniac. Haha. However, I was also like, really into mass today. I really needed to be there. I sort of don't think about it this way, but mass is my time that I have free from stress. Granted, singing at mass is naturally the slightest bit stressful, but I enjoy it, so it doesn't count. I don't have to worry about schoolwork or how stupid or fat I am when I'm in church. A lot of times I'm so preoccupied that I won't be mentally present for an entire mass and I'll be there just to sing. But today for the first time in ages I actually like, was there for what I should have been there for. It made me really happy, actually. I sort of thanked God for everything and asked God for everything both while I was there. I actually am a Catholic. Sometimes I'm not so good about it, and then I like to think that maybe I'm not. But I am. It was so like, refreshing! Yay! Anyway, my aunt was at mass, and so were Jen and Caitie.
When I came home, I was in one of those "Laaa everything is wonderful..." moods, so I took my puppy for a walk and thought about the sky. How like...weird/cool is it that the sky is blue? It could've been black all the time, we could have no sun and it would just be stars and no greater light ever. Or it could be just plain boring white, or an obnoxious yellow, or some creepy red, but it's blue, and blue is calming and pretty. Isn't that neat? That colour is completely natural in our environment, and it's a very pretty colour.
Anyway, all that nice-ness faded because I started doing homework. Homework is fine, but our freaking lab manuals for chem are bitches. I wrote my entire lab in there minus the write-up at the end, and I had to rip it out (OH MY GOD, EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO RIP OUT PAGES!) because I fucked it up so badly. Like...you only number the fronts of pages, and write on the fronts of pages, and topic titles have to be indented six spaces (which is a lot) and any writing under that, four spaces (which is wayy a lot). And you can't cross out or use whiteout, and you need to leave three whole pages for the Table of Contents. But what's a page? One side, or two because we can't write on the backside? Or can we, for the Table of Contents? And if we're numbering only the fronts of pages, is it on a 1-2-3 scale, or a 1-3-5 scale then?
I'll probably end up having to buy another lab manual and start over. And maybe then I'll buy another goddamn theory book while I'm at it.
Teri...wastes money on supplies.
Extreme irritation over chemistry. Plus...I haven't studied for the test yet. Teri fails.
When I came home, I was in one of those "Laaa everything is wonderful..." moods, so I took my puppy for a walk and thought about the sky. How like...weird/cool is it that the sky is blue? It could've been black all the time, we could have no sun and it would just be stars and no greater light ever. Or it could be just plain boring white, or an obnoxious yellow, or some creepy red, but it's blue, and blue is calming and pretty. Isn't that neat? That colour is completely natural in our environment, and it's a very pretty colour.
Anyway, all that nice-ness faded because I started doing homework. Homework is fine, but our freaking lab manuals for chem are bitches. I wrote my entire lab in there minus the write-up at the end, and I had to rip it out (OH MY GOD, EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO RIP OUT PAGES!) because I fucked it up so badly. Like...you only number the fronts of pages, and write on the fronts of pages, and topic titles have to be indented six spaces (which is a lot) and any writing under that, four spaces (which is wayy a lot). And you can't cross out or use whiteout, and you need to leave three whole pages for the Table of Contents. But what's a page? One side, or two because we can't write on the backside? Or can we, for the Table of Contents? And if we're numbering only the fronts of pages, is it on a 1-2-3 scale, or a 1-3-5 scale then?
I'll probably end up having to buy another lab manual and start over. And maybe then I'll buy another goddamn theory book while I'm at it.
Teri...wastes money on supplies.
Extreme irritation over chemistry. Plus...I haven't studied for the test yet. Teri fails.