What am I doing

[musicchic25]

Okay so... Liz asked me to come over last night and everything was way weird. I dont even know why I came over here to be honest and then we went to bed and I had a terribly scary dream that kept me up most the night and then she started snoring so I told her to roll over and I guess out of habit she grabbed me I dont know but anyway I had another terrible dream about Star. Apparently in my dream they started dating and she asked me to come hang out for what ever reason and I had to see them kiss... that sent me in to a world of pissed off I havent been in a while... so I laid there for a little bit longer and she stole all the covers so I said you either have to cuddle or give me back some covers and she grabbed me and pulled me against her and held my hand. After a while I had rolled back over and she started snoring again so again I told her to roll over and she grabbed me again and again I had a dream that she told me they were dating and that she was sorry but she couldnt hang out with me any more and she hoped I had a happy life. Again I was spun in to another world of pissed off I havent been In a while so I decided at that point to just get up. Im not tired any more and Im angry and I dont wanna talk and I just wanna cry and when she wakes up I dont know whats going to happen but I hate dreams like this I really do.

I just hope these dont come true.

And if her touching me sends thoughts of this girl in to my head then that must mean shes thinkin about her alot. And that...

hurts.