Love grows.

[musicbymicah]

With everyday that I share some time with her, I only draw closer. But, there's something in the way of simply giving myself to Mandy.

I love her. That's easy. But I wonder if I'm so deformed by my experience with Sharolynn that I can't fully appreciate what I could have with Mandy.

Everyday they grow stronger. The courage inside and my passion

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[chayam]

What do you mean by "fully appreciate"?

So God and I, we had a big heart to heart this evening, and a lot of it was about you. I wouldn't know where to begin on that. My thoughts and outlook on things like who God is, what he wants from me, his love, how we should interact, how I should live and a whole host of other life- and soul-changing things is reforming at some sort of exponential, dizzying rate. The fact that I'm even examining these issues is scary enough; changing is unimaginable. But here I am, questioning all the while, but what can I do but be utterly who I am? (And hope that some day, someone can see that in its entirity and still love me.)

Anyway, I wanted you to read a post that my friend Eric posted--the guy who helped me get my job? I had told you that I talked about God with him yesterday--and I wish you could understand how weird and significant it is that I'm talking to anyone about God!--and he responded to that in his #5 in the entry. It was #4, however, that I only just caught this evening, and it really moved me. In case you missed it, it's here.

I love all the stimulation and challenges in my life of late provided by talks with you or entries like this. This is the sunny side of growth.

[musicbymicah]

Yeah, Eric knows what he's talking about when it comes to God's love. He seems interesting and I hope I get to meet him soon.