hmmmmm
so yeah, this guy i went you with last night, jason, hmmmm. hmmm indeed, im not sure what to think, we had a good time, nice dinner, gave each other back massages, he offered a full body massage but then i got shy. i wanted to kiss him so bad, i kept looking him in the eyes, turns out he was thinking the same thing, but, im glad it didnt happen, id rather wait ahd let the tension build a bit, lol but yeah, i know next time we get together, we're planning on drinking, so um yeah, heh, i think we're gonna do bad bad things. i want to sit and evaluate my feelings about this guy so far, but i think maybe right now isnt a good time to take too many things into consideration, seeing as how im exhausted and ive got work all day tomorrow then exams tomorrow night and im hopped up on stackers and rootbeer. i should however, consider seeking rehab, not that ive really got a substance abuse problem right now, i just want the vacation. i dont mind sitting through group therapy, and lord knows i could use one on one therapy, and from what i hear, the meds make you feel fucking great. ::chugs rootbeer:: yeahhhh, i love root beer, im gonna have to write a song about it.. id have to describe my voice as a dark version of patsy cline or al;ison krauss, but it sounds nice with an acoustic guitar. ive got a really thick southern draw which gets worse when im drunk. god bless the south. oh today was a niiiice day, i bought my kids a slip and slide so i spent all day running across the yard and flinging myself onto that thing, which we set up on a hill, then flying down and completely flipping over the edge of the pool at the end.. lol my sister and i had contests to see who could make it the farthest past the pool, i think she won when she hit the pool then flew like five feet over and landed on her back in the grass... haha, goodtimes and my kids, they loved it, everytime id fling myself down it they would jump onto my back, which made me go even faster... ok guess i should study now, ugh, i hope i dont fail this exam, my average right now is an 89, not bad considering i barely studied for any test i took, medical terminology, as long as i pass it, ill be ok, now, whats gonna kill me will be anatomy and physiology. premed, my god, what was i thinking..... anyway, gotta study now i just took another stacker and im gonna start a pot of coffee, ill study till 4 am then work at 8 am... yay, once again, no sleep... ::thinks about rehab:: (8 hours a night, id practically KILL for that)