*Because Maybe Your Ganna Be The One That Saves Me..*
Hello
Let me start off by saying this will be a very depressing blog. My life here as of late has come to complete hault I have noticed that scare the hell out of me. So here we go
- I'm 19, live in my hometown, go out with parents on weekends (sad huh?)
- I can't drive...God have i thanked you yet for making me the way I am?
- My ex best friend has just gone and forgotten about me.. like that should surprise anyone i was a part time friend to here anyway.
- She has a boyfriend and I don't- sad because i'm such a better person than she is.
I guess i've noticed I'm not normal I'm different and it makes me cry myself to deep depression that i have to crawl out of in order to keep a happy face on for my family. I feel as if i live a double life one life im happy and fine and the second im sad and upset and feel like a loser for not doing more with my life.
I love my family dearly but i do sometimes think they have been too overprotective with me. I do hope someday I meer someone that will care only for me and make me feel just perfect to the point where i am thinking there is nothing wrong with me. If that does ever happen I will then be able to die happy. We can only hope i guess.
I shall end this blog now.
Later,
-Courtney
Let me start off by saying this will be a very depressing blog. My life here as of late has come to complete hault I have noticed that scare the hell out of me. So here we go
- I'm 19, live in my hometown, go out with parents on weekends (sad huh?)
- I can't drive...God have i thanked you yet for making me the way I am?
- My ex best friend has just gone and forgotten about me.. like that should surprise anyone i was a part time friend to here anyway.
- She has a boyfriend and I don't- sad because i'm such a better person than she is.
I guess i've noticed I'm not normal I'm different and it makes me cry myself to deep depression that i have to crawl out of in order to keep a happy face on for my family. I feel as if i live a double life one life im happy and fine and the second im sad and upset and feel like a loser for not doing more with my life.
I love my family dearly but i do sometimes think they have been too overprotective with me. I do hope someday I meer someone that will care only for me and make me feel just perfect to the point where i am thinking there is nothing wrong with me. If that does ever happen I will then be able to die happy. We can only hope i guess.
I shall end this blog now.
Later,
-Courtney