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I am quite depressed right now, and I'm not sure why. I am just so tired of fighting this battle with my past, and always feeling like I'm on the losing side. I am making progress, and many great things have dawned my understanding. But, I can't help feeling down right now. I just feel like a mess of a person, not being able to do the simpleist of things, not being able to order my life. I just feel like many of the simple tasks of life that people take for granted are without my reach. I just can't stay motivated for any length of time. I can't do the things I set out to do. It's pathetic... I don't feel like others can sympathize because these are such silly things. But the real problems, I suspect, are much deeper, and these silly issues are just the surface tensions. I guess the real problem is that I just can't dig deep enough to find the underlying problem. I don't think that sentence made any sense.
Well, reading back over what I wrote, I sound worse off than I actually am. I think I just needed to get some of that off my chest. Thanks for listening... er, reading.
Well, reading back over what I wrote, I sound worse off than I actually am. I think I just needed to get some of that off my chest. Thanks for listening... er, reading.