shouldn't haves
even down to the little things, there are a lot of 'shouldn't haves' that i have. i mean senseless things, and i wonder, why did i even do that? why am i even thinking this? its so silly, you know? and this being a new year, i've got to stop. i've got to stop it. i feel like i'm a horrible person, and i know i'm not, so then why do i feel like this? why does our mind make us believe such ridiculous things? its absurb.
i wish that i could easily joke and get over things like other people-- like rae. omg, he can brush things off and i want to know how he does it. how he doesn't dwell on things. because me, i say okay, i'm not going to dwell and i say outloud that i'm over it, but then i don't. underneath i'm upset.
how do you do it?
on another note, i forgot how much i love garden state.
and everything it stands for.
♥
i wish that i could easily joke and get over things like other people-- like rae. omg, he can brush things off and i want to know how he does it. how he doesn't dwell on things. because me, i say okay, i'm not going to dwell and i say outloud that i'm over it, but then i don't. underneath i'm upset.
how do you do it?
on another note, i forgot how much i love garden state.
and everything it stands for.
♥