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So for English class we are suppose to be writing journals, and I have written some, mostly on paper, but I am going to do it here too.
Things have been confusing lately. I have been good, bad, mad, sad, upset, happy, excited, satisfied, disappointed, etc. A lot of it has to do with people here at school. Some make me feel like I am worthless, and I should not have people making me feel like that, and acting like high schoolers (not saying all high schoolers act like this...i love you and miss you guys) They are just bad people, and I am going to try to stop that, because I dont want to be feeling like this anymore. I think the reason I am like this all the time, is because of people that are around me and are in my life. And I know I could distant myself from them, but some are really close to me (ok not like real close, but they are friends I thought wouldnt do that) Just this semester, I feel somewhat more confident, but the littlest things (which are due to people) demolish that in an instant, and I do not deserve that. I am better than that, and I want to grow, but I feel like I can't when I have people making me feel like this, and making me feel like I am worthless and not wanted, or do not deserve to be doing what I truely and utterly adore.
Another thing that is getting me is people's ignorance, and immaturity. Especially at this school, and some new editions (*cough*cough* some football players, and not even just them, I shouldnt label, but just most athletes and people like that) are not accepting of new things, or people in general. Let people be who they want without having to worry what others are thinking and making them feel ashamed of who they are. I mean, that is the last thing I want for myself, to be ashamed of myself, but with people saying/doing what they do to make me feel that way, is totally wrong. People are people, and God created each and everyone of us they way we are, so if people have something to say, say it to him. If he didnt want people like me or you, he wouldn't have created us. No one is the same and no one acts the way everyone else does, and that is what makes human beings so fascinating and makes us individuals, which I find extremely awesome!
There are things that make me happy in life, and I am glad I have found them. I know I have so much more to find that will make me even more happier, but right now, for the most part, I am satisfied, and blessed with what I have. Even though me and my family arent as close (reasons vary) they are still supportive (in some aspects) and support me when I need it. They have given me life, and given me a chance to grow in my future, and I am blessed for that. I am blessed for my best friends, for some I would not be able to live my life without, and I am blessed that I have found the ones I know I can not live without. No matter what, it seems like most of them are here for me, and love me for who I am, no questions asked. I thank God for them, and I hestitate to think my life without them. It would be unbearable. I love them and thank them for being in my life, for none of them know how much they mean to me and are in my heart. They are the reasons I wake up in the morning.
I think that is enough for today, there is still so much on my mind (mainly relationships and lack-there-of) but that will be another entry. Thanks for reading (if you did)
Love and peace,
Trey
Things have been confusing lately. I have been good, bad, mad, sad, upset, happy, excited, satisfied, disappointed, etc. A lot of it has to do with people here at school. Some make me feel like I am worthless, and I should not have people making me feel like that, and acting like high schoolers (not saying all high schoolers act like this...i love you and miss you guys) They are just bad people, and I am going to try to stop that, because I dont want to be feeling like this anymore. I think the reason I am like this all the time, is because of people that are around me and are in my life. And I know I could distant myself from them, but some are really close to me (ok not like real close, but they are friends I thought wouldnt do that) Just this semester, I feel somewhat more confident, but the littlest things (which are due to people) demolish that in an instant, and I do not deserve that. I am better than that, and I want to grow, but I feel like I can't when I have people making me feel like this, and making me feel like I am worthless and not wanted, or do not deserve to be doing what I truely and utterly adore.
Another thing that is getting me is people's ignorance, and immaturity. Especially at this school, and some new editions (*cough*cough* some football players, and not even just them, I shouldnt label, but just most athletes and people like that) are not accepting of new things, or people in general. Let people be who they want without having to worry what others are thinking and making them feel ashamed of who they are. I mean, that is the last thing I want for myself, to be ashamed of myself, but with people saying/doing what they do to make me feel that way, is totally wrong. People are people, and God created each and everyone of us they way we are, so if people have something to say, say it to him. If he didnt want people like me or you, he wouldn't have created us. No one is the same and no one acts the way everyone else does, and that is what makes human beings so fascinating and makes us individuals, which I find extremely awesome!
There are things that make me happy in life, and I am glad I have found them. I know I have so much more to find that will make me even more happier, but right now, for the most part, I am satisfied, and blessed with what I have. Even though me and my family arent as close (reasons vary) they are still supportive (in some aspects) and support me when I need it. They have given me life, and given me a chance to grow in my future, and I am blessed for that. I am blessed for my best friends, for some I would not be able to live my life without, and I am blessed that I have found the ones I know I can not live without. No matter what, it seems like most of them are here for me, and love me for who I am, no questions asked. I thank God for them, and I hestitate to think my life without them. It would be unbearable. I love them and thank them for being in my life, for none of them know how much they mean to me and are in my heart. They are the reasons I wake up in the morning.
I think that is enough for today, there is still so much on my mind (mainly relationships and lack-there-of) but that will be another entry. Thanks for reading (if you did)
Love and peace,
Trey