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Ok so I'm offically obessed with the soundtrack from the Broadway musical, WICKED. Even though I don't completely know/understand the story, I sorta have an idea from the lyrics. But I love the chords. And the orchestra is amazing. Lovin' it. Really lovin' it. Wish I could see the play. That and phantom. And you know what else I'm luvin'? Learning to play the french horn! Yea I got some fixed instruments back from All County for my silver knight project but I decided I wanted to just try-out the french horn be4 I delievered it to Apollo Middle. But instead of simply just trying it, I got hooked. It's fun and interesting. Tis' really a beautiful sounding instrument even though I sound like I'm gargling water when I play. LOL. It definately harder than trumpet. But I'm trying not to practice it more than my clarinet, even though I have to deliver it soon. In the meantime, I've been working on a ton of literature and studies for my lessons w/ Phil. I wanna kinda make-up for lost time when all I did was practice my college audition stuff. Yea. All I can do is try. But I'm working on this really awesome piece by a french composer named Massager. Sweet stuff. Lovin' it.
I've offically decided that I like hanging out with guys rather than girls. Not only that, but I enjoy my friendships more with my guy friends rather than with my girl friends. Girls are so catty, rude, emotional, and unpredicatble at time. And yes I do realize I'm a girl. But I was chillin' w/ Carlos and Luke the other night at Mini-golf. I had a friggin' blast. Although sometimes I had to resort to a little bit of a sense of immatureness, but I enjoyed my company throughly. No fighting, jealousy, NO PROBLEMS AT ALL. Guys are so laid back. Its extremely easy to make plans with them too. And the guy friends that I have are very sensitive and kind so I'm not saying its ALL GUYS in general. U get my point. But I'm just so tired of all my girl friends casting me to the wind. They don't even take my feelings into consideration. They are so fucking stupid sometimes! And why do they just treat me like an acquiantance instead of a good/best friend?!?!
So sometimes I sit and think and I wonder..........
Are they going to regret not spending more time w/ me and bonding w/ me before college? Should I regret it? Cuz' I'm only gonna be around here for a few more months. Then that's it. Last year I made it a point to spend time with Podor. It seems like no one is going out of their way to spend time with me. No one cares except Harry, Podor, Luke, and Carlos. At least they are the only ones that show it. Everyone else is just like not caring about me. I can't stand it. Am I such a horrible person?!?! I sit and have discussions w/ my mom and I cry and she tells me to wait until college. I HAVE BEEN WAITING SINCE THE 7th GRADE TO GET NEW FRIENDS TO CARE ABOUT ME! I'M TIRED OF WAITING AND TRYING TO CHANGE AND WAITING FOR OTHERS TO CHANGE AND REALIZE THE ERROR OF THEIR WAYS! WOULDN'T IT BE NICE TO FINISH OFF MY SENIOR YEAR ("THE BEST YEAR") KNOWING THAT I HAVE FRIENDS - FRIENDS WHO TRESURE MY FRIENDSHIP AND ARE GONNA MISS ME AND WILL WANT TO KEEP UP WITH ME?!?!?! Damnit. Sometimes I just wished I could start over w/ the whole friends thing. Start from scratch. But nevermind, then again I wouldn't have met Harry. And I love Harry with all my heart. He is the best. We have been through everything together. The hardest shit man. Since 1st grade. Even if we don't have the same friends to hang out with......and he works and I have rehearsal and blah blah blah......we still make time for each other. Without him I think I would be so lonely sometimes. Thanks Harry, for everything. : )
But golf was a blast. And there were barely any guard ppl there, (which the thought of their presence seemed to bother some of my "friends" that I tried to get to come with me). And I got to try hitting on the driving range. Really awesome. I almost made it to the first flag! Go me! LOL. I realized that Schletter is a friggin' AMAZING golfer. Not just minuature but driving range too. I was impressed by his skills that he claimed he acquired in college at USF. So yea I kinda played a bit of golf w/ Schletter too. We kept getting 2's on the same holes so we were on a roll. Then Luke and Carlos came back to my house. We had a bit of a a jam session. I taught Luke the beginning stages of how to play clarinet and Carlos was just messin' around with the french horn. And then I grabbed my trumpet later and we all played some nice major 1-3-5 chords. :) We shall have more jam sessions in the future. Woot.
Today was food-tasting for the band banquet. Sorry I cannot reveal the choices. TOP SECRET! But it is yummy so it will be fine. And then I went to hear this Japanese band play tonight along with JPT band. The Japanese band was almost identical to the band I saw at All-State. Except this band wasn't as good. ANd they didn't have a banner that read "We love Florida!" But it was a nice change. I love those Asians. They are so precise in thier playing! Mikey and I wanted to steal some of their reeds tho since ours are still on backorder! Gahhh! So anyways, I chilled w/ Mikey there. And after the concert we saw the JPT guard perform. They have the theme from last year's Cadet's theme.
Well that's it for now. It's really late. Friggin' 2 AM! I need sleep. I look a wreck. G'nite!
I've offically decided that I like hanging out with guys rather than girls. Not only that, but I enjoy my friendships more with my guy friends rather than with my girl friends. Girls are so catty, rude, emotional, and unpredicatble at time. And yes I do realize I'm a girl. But I was chillin' w/ Carlos and Luke the other night at Mini-golf. I had a friggin' blast. Although sometimes I had to resort to a little bit of a sense of immatureness, but I enjoyed my company throughly. No fighting, jealousy, NO PROBLEMS AT ALL. Guys are so laid back. Its extremely easy to make plans with them too. And the guy friends that I have are very sensitive and kind so I'm not saying its ALL GUYS in general. U get my point. But I'm just so tired of all my girl friends casting me to the wind. They don't even take my feelings into consideration. They are so fucking stupid sometimes! And why do they just treat me like an acquiantance instead of a good/best friend?!?!
So sometimes I sit and think and I wonder..........
Are they going to regret not spending more time w/ me and bonding w/ me before college? Should I regret it? Cuz' I'm only gonna be around here for a few more months. Then that's it. Last year I made it a point to spend time with Podor. It seems like no one is going out of their way to spend time with me. No one cares except Harry, Podor, Luke, and Carlos. At least they are the only ones that show it. Everyone else is just like not caring about me. I can't stand it. Am I such a horrible person?!?! I sit and have discussions w/ my mom and I cry and she tells me to wait until college. I HAVE BEEN WAITING SINCE THE 7th GRADE TO GET NEW FRIENDS TO CARE ABOUT ME! I'M TIRED OF WAITING AND TRYING TO CHANGE AND WAITING FOR OTHERS TO CHANGE AND REALIZE THE ERROR OF THEIR WAYS! WOULDN'T IT BE NICE TO FINISH OFF MY SENIOR YEAR ("THE BEST YEAR") KNOWING THAT I HAVE FRIENDS - FRIENDS WHO TRESURE MY FRIENDSHIP AND ARE GONNA MISS ME AND WILL WANT TO KEEP UP WITH ME?!?!?! Damnit. Sometimes I just wished I could start over w/ the whole friends thing. Start from scratch. But nevermind, then again I wouldn't have met Harry. And I love Harry with all my heart. He is the best. We have been through everything together. The hardest shit man. Since 1st grade. Even if we don't have the same friends to hang out with......and he works and I have rehearsal and blah blah blah......we still make time for each other. Without him I think I would be so lonely sometimes. Thanks Harry, for everything. : )
But golf was a blast. And there were barely any guard ppl there, (which the thought of their presence seemed to bother some of my "friends" that I tried to get to come with me). And I got to try hitting on the driving range. Really awesome. I almost made it to the first flag! Go me! LOL. I realized that Schletter is a friggin' AMAZING golfer. Not just minuature but driving range too. I was impressed by his skills that he claimed he acquired in college at USF. So yea I kinda played a bit of golf w/ Schletter too. We kept getting 2's on the same holes so we were on a roll. Then Luke and Carlos came back to my house. We had a bit of a a jam session. I taught Luke the beginning stages of how to play clarinet and Carlos was just messin' around with the french horn. And then I grabbed my trumpet later and we all played some nice major 1-3-5 chords. :) We shall have more jam sessions in the future. Woot.
Today was food-tasting for the band banquet. Sorry I cannot reveal the choices. TOP SECRET! But it is yummy so it will be fine. And then I went to hear this Japanese band play tonight along with JPT band. The Japanese band was almost identical to the band I saw at All-State. Except this band wasn't as good. ANd they didn't have a banner that read "We love Florida!" But it was a nice change. I love those Asians. They are so precise in thier playing! Mikey and I wanted to steal some of their reeds tho since ours are still on backorder! Gahhh! So anyways, I chilled w/ Mikey there. And after the concert we saw the JPT guard perform. They have the theme from last year's Cadet's theme.
Well that's it for now. It's really late. Friggin' 2 AM! I need sleep. I look a wreck. G'nite!