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i guess this is my first entry. I dunno quite what to say. O well... I finally got into that christmas spirit everyone talks about. i was expecting it not to come this year cuz school was so hectic and tiring. i was going to go caroling with my friends, but that, like all of many of my plans fell through the floor. i was gonna go see a movie with nathalie, sarah, issa, and company, but that didn't work out too well. i hope i made council. there were like 70 people that applied at least. marie claire liked my application, but i don't know if the officers liked it. yeah, i've probably annoyed the heck out of sarah, badgering her about applications. its the season of family i guess. gotta get in that christmas spirit. now that i finally have a journal, i dun no what to talk about. i'll probably write in it often though. life goes on. i guess i can finally kick back and relax (yeah right). i guess i have places to vent now finally instead of at people. too much sugar. way too much sugar. funny thing is its not making me hyper at all. i've been thinking about my new year's resoluions, and i still don't know what to do. i didn't expect any gifts today, but it was awesome when i actually got stuff. yeah i was sorta feeling down yesterday and today so i guess that sorta helped, in a way. then again, i hate materialism. what a hypocrite i am. I'll have to make it up to those people with new year's gifts. Colleen wants orange soda. Maybe i'll get a few oranges to put on them. clementines. but then again, the stupid messed-up USDA is recalling them for the spanish bug that got in em. Now that i've started i dunno if i can stop. this has gotta be the best way to get out ur feelings. hope not too many people discover this, or it'd be really stupid. talked to mejin today. i think she needs to get in the christmas spirit. then again its so hard to be so freakin optiimistic all the time. all of my friends are so fucking depressed. they really need to lighten up. its sorta annoying cuz i have to cheer people up. like merri for example, u would never expect her to need confidence boosters. man, i dunno, christmas spirit is down this year. maybe i should go caroling by myself. christmas is supposed to be a warm time. warm inside at least. i can see what my english teacher was saying when she said high school were the worst years. but then again, they've been great so far, and i never liked her anyway. i thought i was the only one with dark thinking. u know i dunno why i'm writing so much if people are going to be reading it cuz its pisses me off when i pity myself. its odd how people's inner selves r best expressed through writing (or in this case typing). well i think i could get used to this.