how i really feel about things..............
There are some truths that need to be told, and this will be my time to do so. I don't know who will read this, but I will leave it open for anyone who cares to. Here is one rumor debunked. As much as I love playing my horn, I hate OCCWE with a passion this semester! I hate playing second to Colin. No matter what anyone says about my talents vs his, its a slap in the face! I deserve that spot much more and I can't stand taking directions from someone who has no right to be giving them. Second thing to come straight out about. I haven't tried going to SU Brass because I'm just plain scared. I'm afraid of going there and making a plain and simple fool of myself. I don't want to go and be horrible and shame myself. They may ask me not to come back again and that would be mortifying. I'm also pissed off that Kevin won't read my blog because of something I said one time when I was angry. I wish he wouldn't take everything to heart, especially when I'm angry. I am very glad that I have a job now. I have not been being lazy, just selective. Its been hard on me and not working or going to school has like killed me on the inside. I guess thats all I really want to say. There it was, some stuff I have really wanted the world to know and I'm finally doing what it is my place to do..............say how I feel.