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You know, sometimes, i just lean up against the wall and press my cheek to the coolness of it, just to remind myself that i can feel. I know that sounds really cliche and emo, but it's true. Sometimes you need reminding that you can be touched, and your skin will feel it. I need something i can lean on, something solid and real. I mean, a wall is real, and solid, but, its a wall. When i lean my cheek against it, it's cold. It doesn't have the steady pulse of a heartbeat, or the simple calming sound of slow warm breath(e). It doesn't have a voice to hum in my ear, or arms to put around me. But it's there, to lean on when i just feel to weak and sad to keep going. It's there and sturdy and dependable. But i think the worst thing about the wall is..is that it doesn't lean back, or listen or love. It's just a wall. Just a wall.