Why hello there.
Ok, so I haven't been on here in like a kabillion years!!
Like OMGoodness.
I feel that I should explain perhaps why I've been incommunicano lately. But to do this I have to trust that all of you won't think of me funny or go telling like 8 billion other people about it, though I trust that none of you would do that, so its all good hommie.
So here it goes...
I've been having issues with anxiety and panic attacks lately.
I know it doesn't really sound serious, but its been preventing me from really doing anything in general. Like for example those of you who I was supposed to go to wonderland with last thursday, I said I was sick, but by sick I mean that the idea of going was giving me panic attacks, because I was scared that I'd have another panic attack either in the car on the way there or at wonderland itself and since both of my parents were working that day it freaked me out more cus there'd be no real way for them to come and rescue me if I had issues.
So as ridiculous as that sounds, it prevented me from going, and also prevents me from giving you a direct answer about wether or not I want to go this thursday, so I am very sorry about that and I wish I could change it but I haven't really learned how to quite yet.
I'm also having issues with seperation anxiety which gives me panic attacks when I think about having to leave certain people, as dumb as that sounds also, so that doesn't help my situation either.
So really I've just been cowarding in my house lately, only leaving when its necessary. Which I feel like a complete retard for.
But for those who are concerned about me getting over this I'm seeking help, and will hopefully learn ways to cope with it, and eventually get over this.
But back to the wonderland on thursday idea, my mom would be willing to drive us all there, she'd be there at the park all day probably just lounging in the water park in case I had any problems, and then would drive us all home at the end of the day. Now I feel that it would probably be a good thing for me to do this cus I do enjoy wonderland, but I just can't seem to get up the courage to do it, so once again I'm not positive I'll go. Though I'm not sure if u guys are into going anymore anyways. But let me know what u think at least I guess, and I'll try to get up some courage and go, cus I know I'd have a good time.
But anyways thats whats going on with me, and I'm really really sorry if I've inconvinced people or anything because of this, really sorry! And please don't go tell anyone, I'd perfer it if I could tell people when I'm ready to. Thanks!!!!
Like OMGoodness.
I feel that I should explain perhaps why I've been incommunicano lately. But to do this I have to trust that all of you won't think of me funny or go telling like 8 billion other people about it, though I trust that none of you would do that, so its all good hommie.
So here it goes...
I've been having issues with anxiety and panic attacks lately.
I know it doesn't really sound serious, but its been preventing me from really doing anything in general. Like for example those of you who I was supposed to go to wonderland with last thursday, I said I was sick, but by sick I mean that the idea of going was giving me panic attacks, because I was scared that I'd have another panic attack either in the car on the way there or at wonderland itself and since both of my parents were working that day it freaked me out more cus there'd be no real way for them to come and rescue me if I had issues.
So as ridiculous as that sounds, it prevented me from going, and also prevents me from giving you a direct answer about wether or not I want to go this thursday, so I am very sorry about that and I wish I could change it but I haven't really learned how to quite yet.
I'm also having issues with seperation anxiety which gives me panic attacks when I think about having to leave certain people, as dumb as that sounds also, so that doesn't help my situation either.
So really I've just been cowarding in my house lately, only leaving when its necessary. Which I feel like a complete retard for.
But for those who are concerned about me getting over this I'm seeking help, and will hopefully learn ways to cope with it, and eventually get over this.
But back to the wonderland on thursday idea, my mom would be willing to drive us all there, she'd be there at the park all day probably just lounging in the water park in case I had any problems, and then would drive us all home at the end of the day. Now I feel that it would probably be a good thing for me to do this cus I do enjoy wonderland, but I just can't seem to get up the courage to do it, so once again I'm not positive I'll go. Though I'm not sure if u guys are into going anymore anyways. But let me know what u think at least I guess, and I'll try to get up some courage and go, cus I know I'd have a good time.
But anyways thats whats going on with me, and I'm really really sorry if I've inconvinced people or anything because of this, really sorry! And please don't go tell anyone, I'd perfer it if I could tell people when I'm ready to. Thanks!!!!