Just a dream...
I keep meaning to update, but then don't cus I don't really have anything to say/don't really know what to day.
So I guess I'll try, because its been a long time since I have, and I notice not too many people are updating, so perhaps this will give those who are looking for something to read somehting to read lol. Though I don't know if u'll find it very interesting, cus I don't really think you'll understand what I'm talking about, but thats ok.
So here it goes...
I'm slightly frustrated, because we've never been so close to be so far (to steal from lyrics).
*sigh* Theres all those like emails, and things people always say, and they're always like you should do these sorts of things because u never know whats going to happen to you so you might not have the chance, but I don't think these people have ever had the situation where they've had to get up the courage to say it. It's so silly, like you wouldn't think it would be so difficult. You'd think I'd be confident enough by now to be able to say something like that, but apparently not. Ugh, and literally we've never spent so much time together, and even then when we're apart its cus we're forced to be not because we want to be. I've never felt more secure about it before either, but I still can't do it, urgh....so frustrating! I'm eveing having dreams about it its so weird!
O well we'll see what goes down this week/next if it takes that long. I'll just have to try to get over myself, cus I don't think I should worry about it going wrong at all, cus I feel I should be confident about the answer, but of course I'm never confident about anything. I guess I'll just have to keep trying. Just wish that I could get it out there and resolve this, then I don't have to think about it at all, and it will just be like final reassurance. But then there's always those people that say that you should never say it, cus it will scare them, but I don't think that I will, cus I feel confident about the answer, but not all at the same time, cus I'm scared those people will be right....
urgh, well I think a whole bunch of you if not all of you can guess what I'm talking about, so yay for me trying to be descreet about these things, o well. If you've read this forget that you did cus I feel embarassed about people know this/don't want people to know, cus I want to keep it for myself. But I guess I haven't really.
If any of that made sense to you, then kudos to you, cus I'm ultra tired lol, so you're definately an expert at understanding people.
Anyways I think I should stop rambling, cus I'm not talking about anything anymore!!
toodles
So I guess I'll try, because its been a long time since I have, and I notice not too many people are updating, so perhaps this will give those who are looking for something to read somehting to read lol. Though I don't know if u'll find it very interesting, cus I don't really think you'll understand what I'm talking about, but thats ok.
So here it goes...
I'm slightly frustrated, because we've never been so close to be so far (to steal from lyrics).
*sigh* Theres all those like emails, and things people always say, and they're always like you should do these sorts of things because u never know whats going to happen to you so you might not have the chance, but I don't think these people have ever had the situation where they've had to get up the courage to say it. It's so silly, like you wouldn't think it would be so difficult. You'd think I'd be confident enough by now to be able to say something like that, but apparently not. Ugh, and literally we've never spent so much time together, and even then when we're apart its cus we're forced to be not because we want to be. I've never felt more secure about it before either, but I still can't do it, urgh....so frustrating! I'm eveing having dreams about it its so weird!
O well we'll see what goes down this week/next if it takes that long. I'll just have to try to get over myself, cus I don't think I should worry about it going wrong at all, cus I feel I should be confident about the answer, but of course I'm never confident about anything. I guess I'll just have to keep trying. Just wish that I could get it out there and resolve this, then I don't have to think about it at all, and it will just be like final reassurance. But then there's always those people that say that you should never say it, cus it will scare them, but I don't think that I will, cus I feel confident about the answer, but not all at the same time, cus I'm scared those people will be right....
urgh, well I think a whole bunch of you if not all of you can guess what I'm talking about, so yay for me trying to be descreet about these things, o well. If you've read this forget that you did cus I feel embarassed about people know this/don't want people to know, cus I want to keep it for myself. But I guess I haven't really.
If any of that made sense to you, then kudos to you, cus I'm ultra tired lol, so you're definately an expert at understanding people.
Anyways I think I should stop rambling, cus I'm not talking about anything anymore!!
toodles