Losing Sleep, Sanity, Fake Nails, and Patience
Life is busy. Each day consists of lab and work, and not by schedules other people impose upon me, but of my own choosing. I enjoy my voluntary time in the lab more than I have ever enjoyed doing other long, tedious tasks, so I would feel bad giving up lab time (eventhough I am working at least 5 hours more a week than I am required to volunteer).
Thank you to the voice of reason (you know who you are), a major crisis has been averted. I was afraid that I was going to loose friends again...Unfortunately that has happened a lot due to circumstances beyond my control. There's always something or someone that does not like the way I keep friendships...oh, well.
So, this is what I have recently learned/concluded about relationships:
- they should always evolve from friendship (this is by far the hardest part to accept...I like sex).
- Your happiness should not depend on the other person, but that person should be a complement to your life--a little something extra.
- Needing someone to be your friend is okay...and kinda scary to admit to yourself...and confusing.
- they don't work if you have nothing in common.
- You cannot be a friend with an ex unless you were friends before.
- Time is the only thing that heals break-up wounds...and you have to be UBER patient.
- Dating = someone only wants sex.
- Friendships are more important, steadfast, and consistent.
- You cannot always have the types of relationships you want to have with people (even including friendships)
- Taking a risk with a relationship can be okay; as long as you are not going to cause irreparable damage (and chances are you will not) taking a chance could turn out to be great, and hurting someone often only makes them stronger.....right???
- You cannot really control the evolution of a relationship.
I will not be speaking to Ali until at least the end of the summer, I think, and he doesn't wish to speak to me right now (for my own good...?). Why do I cause drama???
My fake nails are coming off one by one so I look like a nut who got bored and clipped a couple of random nails one day. My real nails are too thin to really handle anything, so they bend all the time and I fear that I will not be able to do things like open soda cans or pick up small objects. An opposable thumb is no good if you have no strength in your pointy extensions.
I was going to type about goals but realized I never follow through with them anyway....i get distracted way too easily.
I am too tired to share my philosophies today. I have been lacking inspiration for days. :(
Thank you to the voice of reason (you know who you are), a major crisis has been averted. I was afraid that I was going to loose friends again...Unfortunately that has happened a lot due to circumstances beyond my control. There's always something or someone that does not like the way I keep friendships...oh, well.
So, this is what I have recently learned/concluded about relationships:
- they should always evolve from friendship (this is by far the hardest part to accept...I like sex).
- Your happiness should not depend on the other person, but that person should be a complement to your life--a little something extra.
- Needing someone to be your friend is okay...and kinda scary to admit to yourself...and confusing.
- they don't work if you have nothing in common.
- You cannot be a friend with an ex unless you were friends before.
- Time is the only thing that heals break-up wounds...and you have to be UBER patient.
- Dating = someone only wants sex.
- Friendships are more important, steadfast, and consistent.
- You cannot always have the types of relationships you want to have with people (even including friendships)
- Taking a risk with a relationship can be okay; as long as you are not going to cause irreparable damage (and chances are you will not) taking a chance could turn out to be great, and hurting someone often only makes them stronger.....right???
- You cannot really control the evolution of a relationship.
I will not be speaking to Ali until at least the end of the summer, I think, and he doesn't wish to speak to me right now (for my own good...?). Why do I cause drama???
My fake nails are coming off one by one so I look like a nut who got bored and clipped a couple of random nails one day. My real nails are too thin to really handle anything, so they bend all the time and I fear that I will not be able to do things like open soda cans or pick up small objects. An opposable thumb is no good if you have no strength in your pointy extensions.
I was going to type about goals but realized I never follow through with them anyway....i get distracted way too easily.
I am too tired to share my philosophies today. I have been lacking inspiration for days. :(