So i'm thinking. What a 180.

[music_of_mind]

So i'm thinking, what a 180. We all remember that one night, stupid night, when everyone was in panic mode bc lil old me was "missing." Its really weird because I remember crying everyday and everynight thinking that my life was ruined. My parents wouldn't let me out anymore, they didn't want me with my friends anymore. EVERYTHING was a mess. I was so depressed. Somehow though, and I dont know how, my friendships at school shifted as well. I made new friends like Elisa who became so close to me, SO CLOSE, because we were so alike. And then sooner or later they became my new close friends and hang out buddies. And ofcourse it wasnt because I didnt wanna hang out with my old friends anymore but I had so many strikes against me and things were starting to shift.Then ofcourse summer starts and changes friendships all over again. And i started hanging out with BritBrat and Mario again and like I ask myself why I stopped in the first place. I feel like I got my best friend back out of BritBrat and I'm kinda just lovin things right now. I got a job at the place I wanted and with people that are close to me now to. I luhh my FRO with all my heart and she makes me happy and i'm happy i got the opportunity to meet them. Then I met Chrsitain along time ago with Daygoro and Dave n Derek and never EVER did I think these guys would become my friends who I would talk to everyday and hang out with. And never did I see myself getting a boyfriend out of my boy, but not only that, just feeling the way I do now. Its been never that someone would call just to leave me messages to make me smile. And i have absolutley no clue what'll happen with us but something i learned everday from being with Charles was that you cant control the future, but you know its not gonna be forever, so just to apprieciate the moments that come. Just live for the moment. And I really did do that with Charles and I appreciated every moment and I'm doing it again now and Its so much better. I'm so happy right now. So i'm thinking, what a 180. Things were so bad. I didnt even want to wake up in the morning. Everyday I felt like that. To now, where I have awesome people in my life. Awesome! See, the good comes with the bad and bad with the good. But right now, i dont think about it. Seriously, it helps. Just appriciate what you have right now. I have my worries. everyday but I need to learn to trust people again.I'm really appy.
Lets hold on to that.

night my loves <3