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I often times wonder what the hell is wrong with my decision making skills.
Last friday I almost got caught smoking weed on school property, well let me tell you if I had actually been caught my life as I know it would have ended up considerably different. My vocal teacher caught me. Thank God it was him and no one else or I would be sitting here crying knowing that my life was over. He talked to me after the fact and he basically said that he didn't care if I wanted to smoke it as long as it wasn't on school property. Good to know. It was a wake up call as you'd call it.
I feel like my walls are closing in. So insecure. I don't know who I am anymore. I try to be who I want to be and get criticized. What the fuck is wrong with society? I don't belong. But do I want to belong? I don't even know the answer to that question. How the fuck am I supposed to live not knowing?
Graham is the only thing keeping me afloat right now. With all the pressures I have sitting on my shoulders right now I don't know how I'm still sane.
FUCK!
Last friday I almost got caught smoking weed on school property, well let me tell you if I had actually been caught my life as I know it would have ended up considerably different. My vocal teacher caught me. Thank God it was him and no one else or I would be sitting here crying knowing that my life was over. He talked to me after the fact and he basically said that he didn't care if I wanted to smoke it as long as it wasn't on school property. Good to know. It was a wake up call as you'd call it.
I feel like my walls are closing in. So insecure. I don't know who I am anymore. I try to be who I want to be and get criticized. What the fuck is wrong with society? I don't belong. But do I want to belong? I don't even know the answer to that question. How the fuck am I supposed to live not knowing?
Graham is the only thing keeping me afloat right now. With all the pressures I have sitting on my shoulders right now I don't know how I'm still sane.
FUCK!