i feel stupid...
Today sucked so bad... i don't even know what it was about the day but the whole thing sucked. Lauren didn't come to school cuz she didn't feel good. That sucked. the whole day without seeing her... and i know some of you probobly dont care.. and if thats the case don't read my journal cuz she means so much to me and going a day without seeing her upsets me. *shrugs* nothin i could do about it though. got yelled at by Curlee... gah whatever!! iono it was all kind of stupid today.. and in guard i did nothing but listen to music.. which wasnt all that bad but the day had already gone downhill. but yes.. american idol was on tonight. oh woohoo that made my day so much better. not. i miss american idol so much. i miss having it poor down rain so we have to sit under the overpass and i miss being in the huge line with all those people singing.. and i miss the atmosphere. i miss sleeping in minute maid park on the concrete inbetween the chairs and waking up and having the light shine through the roof thingy. i miss renting the hotel room to do our hair.. and practicing in the bathroom with megz and some other girl. I miss waking up at 3 AM and getting ready... and waiting for our turn to sing and meeting those awesome guys. i miss watching megan sing and then hearing the producer say she was moving on to the next round and the joy and happiness i felt when i heard that... thats my best friend and shes going to be a star. i miss having the guy next to me sing his song... *melts* wow he had an amazing voice. i miss singing for that judge and having him tell me that i made it.. but completely not listening to him so the guy next to me had to tell me again. i miss running over to megan and hugging her and then us taking our walk. anyways enough about that. Today i realized next year is going to be hard. It was so sad to not have lauren there. and the even sadder part.. is thats how its going to be next year. *cries* i wont get to see her beautiful face between every class... iono its dumb but i think it just really hit me today.. and its hard. and im trying because i know shes going to have alot of fun next year and im excited for her.. its just hard. anyways i better get going before i ramble to much. yall have a great evening.
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