wow.. so today... sucked

[music_is_life16]

One of the worst days in a long long time. It started out wonderful... then i woke up. I felt really extremely crappy all day. Tired, and boo and gosh i don't know what else. Colorguard sucked today. like no other. people were just really getting frustrated.. and thats understandable.. i didn't even want to be there today. ah afterschool i went tanning which was good. turning skin to leather = good. haha. yeah im a lil pink but nothing compared to what i was monday or yesterday. they didn't have any heart stickers so i couldnt do the cool design megz and i came up with. Then we went and got some jamba juice and then i went home.. *sighs* which i guess is where the day really got bad. my mom asked to see my progress report and my grades werent all that bad (no failage or anything) but i really hadn't put any effort into my schoolwork. so i got yelled at for a lil while and they wouldn't let me defend my history grade. (not my fault they decided to take me out of school for therapy and i just havent had time to make up quiz) but i got yelled at some more.. and me being the big stupid cry baby i am.. started to cry. then they threatened to take away my italy trip... which made me cry even harder. :( oh and my phone got taken away. :( :( :( and yeah so then i was expected to do my homeowork. i really tried to do it.. and i got all of it done. it was just incredibly hard. plus i had a break in there in which i had to go to therapy. yippy skippy.. not. iono she just kept talking about my commitment issues and i was like im aware i have them.. im trying to work through them. but then i came home and did more homework. its not like i want to fail all my classes or do even average in them... i just don't want to do them at all. i don't know if i want to go to college and if i do i will be paying it off for the rest of my life.. no joke. I don't want to go to college in texas.. i want to go to california. which means that its gonna cost even more and boo i don't know. all i want to do is sing. :) :) singing = :) :) :) oh but the good news is.. i don't have to do my solo for solo/ensamble. my mom doesn't care that i don't want to do it. i let her listen to it and she was like uhh omg.. her voice is uhhh... torture to listen too. lol. which is awesome! because its so true. but holy cow our ensamble is going to suck. oh well. *sighs* well i better go before i keep rambling and no one wants to read it. i hope everyone had a great day. *muah*
-me
oh and to make my day so much better... my cousin found out she has crones(sp?) disease. she can't die from it if they get the infection cleared up.. but still its a lil scary. so please please pray for her. i know she could really use it right now. thank you so much!!