two weeks.
i've been feeling better lately. i don't think its because things are improving, its just that i havent been thinking about them, and thats worse in the long run.
i have been making new friends and it is fantastic. angel, kim (porky), danni HATE, donny and of course teddy the great. i was already friends with teddy but were closer now. its so funny he always talks about railing hot girls but i cant see him having sex with anyone. also he has the prettiest hair ive ever seen, (not to mention the best make up).
these next 2 weeks are going to snail by like nothing else. i have a week and a half left of school, and then im done with school for a long time. 10 weeks till the big move, who knows when im telling my parents though, i still dont have any advice from you people!!! im getting my hair cut on friday, the same as it is now, just a little shorter, and im having the layers redone. i need to start going tanning, and i need my nails done so i can scratch his back. we're going to go see star wars together, im really excited. ive been reading all my cousins books and encyclopedias on it because i care about what he likes! and i want to be some what knowledgeable so he'll know whats important to him is also important to me. i hate always talking about him on here but i cant help it, i never get to see him, so i paint pictures in my head and then i write them in here so i can come back and read them. its so sad. my advice to anyone who is thinking about a long distance relationship, dont do it, unless you can see one of you making sacrifices to be with the other one. right now, if i had no idea when i was going to see him after the 22nd, and there were no talks of one of us moving ever, i couldnt do it. it is so hard. people tell you, oh yeah those suck, they never work out. well theyre worse. i dont see how anyone could be in one for longer than 2 years. how does that even work? baby will you marry me? ok. and still they live miles apart. i think that a long distance relationship is an implication that the two will come together permanently at some point.
what am i talking about. i need to quit going on tangents because they are retarded. i think it has to do with im at school and when im here, my mind is everywhere BUT school, and when im at home, all i think about is the assignment that i need to turn in/havent turned in.
i miss dancing so much. its hard for me to even picture myself on stage, but i swear i did it for 5 years. its a hard feeling to describe, everything kind of disapears, and everything is just natural, i never had to concentrate on anything, even if i was having a hard time remembering the routine, it just sort of came to me subconciously the minute i got on stage. the best part for me was having the bright lights in my face, and i couldnt see the audience. i think me and angel are going to take belly dancing lessons, which would be fun, but id like to find somewhere where i can take lyrical also.
does anyone know of any employers that will hire someone and they can just work 1 or 2 days a week for only a couple hours? i have a job now, and im getting a raise when i move, but it would be nice not to have to freak out about money right now, a little job like that would be awesome.
ohhhhhh what else, im really going to miss my little dog, and i would bring him, but there is no way i could take care of him. well i could, but he is so little and scaredy that he needs to have another dog, because he cannot be by himself. if he didnt have my other dog, i dont think he would be the same at all. and champ wouldnt let him sleep in our bed (even though every time he went on tour i would let him) so he would be all lonely on the floor or outside the door and probably cry. he is so needy. IM SO FUCKING SAD. if i could afford another dog, and the little one could sleep in my bed i would so take him. FUCK. anyone who has a pet that they truely love knows how sad i am. whats even more sad is that he is the only thing im going to really really truely miss. except for my little sister, but i would like for her to make a trip out to see me, and poco can't. this is my little sister, she is cute.
ok im done i have been in this computer lab for like an hour i am a hog.
i have been making new friends and it is fantastic. angel, kim (porky), danni HATE, donny and of course teddy the great. i was already friends with teddy but were closer now. its so funny he always talks about railing hot girls but i cant see him having sex with anyone. also he has the prettiest hair ive ever seen, (not to mention the best make up).
these next 2 weeks are going to snail by like nothing else. i have a week and a half left of school, and then im done with school for a long time. 10 weeks till the big move, who knows when im telling my parents though, i still dont have any advice from you people!!! im getting my hair cut on friday, the same as it is now, just a little shorter, and im having the layers redone. i need to start going tanning, and i need my nails done so i can scratch his back. we're going to go see star wars together, im really excited. ive been reading all my cousins books and encyclopedias on it because i care about what he likes! and i want to be some what knowledgeable so he'll know whats important to him is also important to me. i hate always talking about him on here but i cant help it, i never get to see him, so i paint pictures in my head and then i write them in here so i can come back and read them. its so sad. my advice to anyone who is thinking about a long distance relationship, dont do it, unless you can see one of you making sacrifices to be with the other one. right now, if i had no idea when i was going to see him after the 22nd, and there were no talks of one of us moving ever, i couldnt do it. it is so hard. people tell you, oh yeah those suck, they never work out. well theyre worse. i dont see how anyone could be in one for longer than 2 years. how does that even work? baby will you marry me? ok. and still they live miles apart. i think that a long distance relationship is an implication that the two will come together permanently at some point.
what am i talking about. i need to quit going on tangents because they are retarded. i think it has to do with im at school and when im here, my mind is everywhere BUT school, and when im at home, all i think about is the assignment that i need to turn in/havent turned in.
i miss dancing so much. its hard for me to even picture myself on stage, but i swear i did it for 5 years. its a hard feeling to describe, everything kind of disapears, and everything is just natural, i never had to concentrate on anything, even if i was having a hard time remembering the routine, it just sort of came to me subconciously the minute i got on stage. the best part for me was having the bright lights in my face, and i couldnt see the audience. i think me and angel are going to take belly dancing lessons, which would be fun, but id like to find somewhere where i can take lyrical also.
does anyone know of any employers that will hire someone and they can just work 1 or 2 days a week for only a couple hours? i have a job now, and im getting a raise when i move, but it would be nice not to have to freak out about money right now, a little job like that would be awesome.
ohhhhhh what else, im really going to miss my little dog, and i would bring him, but there is no way i could take care of him. well i could, but he is so little and scaredy that he needs to have another dog, because he cannot be by himself. if he didnt have my other dog, i dont think he would be the same at all. and champ wouldnt let him sleep in our bed (even though every time he went on tour i would let him) so he would be all lonely on the floor or outside the door and probably cry. he is so needy. IM SO FUCKING SAD. if i could afford another dog, and the little one could sleep in my bed i would so take him. FUCK. anyone who has a pet that they truely love knows how sad i am. whats even more sad is that he is the only thing im going to really really truely miss. except for my little sister, but i would like for her to make a trip out to see me, and poco can't. this is my little sister, she is cute.
ok im done i have been in this computer lab for like an hour i am a hog.