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The banquet was fun tonight. i got my usual awards..but hey i got my jazz band award this year..lol.hazlett said he is going to look for my one from last year. i hope he finds it cuz i really want it. i need to get 6 picture frams so i can frame all of my awards and hang them in my room.
My grandmother has finally started sleeping downstairs. everytime she would try to go up the stairs i wanted to cry. she used to be up and down those stairs at least 20 times a day with laundary and trach and my little sister, and now she can't even get up them. she is going down hill so fast and it is taking a huge toll on my whole family. everytime she falls i just want to cry, but i don't, because i know if my grandmother heard me she would give up even more. like on sunday, at 4 in the morning, the day of my party, she fell in the bathroom. the only way i heard her was that she was kicking the door against the wall so i could hear her. it is so hard knowing htat she could die anyday, and there is nothing i can do. she says she has nothing to live for, but she does! she has me and my mom and little sister and my aunts and uncles. we all care about her so much. she can't lift anything, can pick up anything, she can't even go to the bathroom by her self.
=/. i'm not in that great of a mood. i dunno why. i really wish i knew why so i could be happy again.
My grandmother has finally started sleeping downstairs. everytime she would try to go up the stairs i wanted to cry. she used to be up and down those stairs at least 20 times a day with laundary and trach and my little sister, and now she can't even get up them. she is going down hill so fast and it is taking a huge toll on my whole family. everytime she falls i just want to cry, but i don't, because i know if my grandmother heard me she would give up even more. like on sunday, at 4 in the morning, the day of my party, she fell in the bathroom. the only way i heard her was that she was kicking the door against the wall so i could hear her. it is so hard knowing htat she could die anyday, and there is nothing i can do. she says she has nothing to live for, but she does! she has me and my mom and little sister and my aunts and uncles. we all care about her so much. she can't lift anything, can pick up anything, she can't even go to the bathroom by her self.
=/. i'm not in that great of a mood. i dunno why. i really wish i knew why so i could be happy again.