Sep 27, 2008 21:28
Life is such a fleeting thing. I really don't know if I should enjoy life while I can now (in the case of a short life) or to work hard for a better tomorrow...
I am still in the stages of shock. It's weird...I'm not quite sure what I am or supposed to be feeling; I just found out that my friend Kawai Noriko has passed away. then again...from past experiences...I really don't feel anything...maybe i just have nerves of steel or simply am void of emotions...
I guess I should have known that something had happened the last time I spoke w/ Toshi, Noriko's brother. He forgot about our appointment to hang out n told me that a family emergency had happened. I sort of guessed that maybe a family member had passed away...but i would never had guessed it to be Noriko. n this was back in September...I only know now because Noriko's mother went to my work place n was asked about her daughter by a coworker. My coworker called my mom to have her inform me. It was really quite a shock n I had to think for a while before calling Toshi. He was really happy that I called n apologized about not telling me because he knew I would be shocked. He told me about how he had dinner w/ Noriko the night before n yet when he went to wake her up on Sept 8, she was cold n would not open her eyes. He said that Noriko must have missed me because of all this coincidences and that she was quite lonely her last week because her cell broke n was looking forward to going out w/ me. He told me all this w/ a sad n tired voice...sounding nothing like the energetic n warm Toshi I knew...
her funeral is on Oct 1...but because it's during a weekday, i won't be able to go...but i think i'll send flowers to her funeral reception.
even tho i didn't know her for that long, i really liked her warm, energetic n fun personality. she also really liked me right from the start. i have a feeling that given more time, i would have become really close friends w/ her hontoni zannendesune...
the coincidences are sort of unnerving me tho...i just went to shiraisu this morning in memory of my grandma's passing. Noriko passed away under similar situations to my grandma; suddenly in the morning n lonely even w/ family around. n her funeral is on the same day as when my grandma passed away...tho i'm prob just being overly superstitious...at least i hope i am