my birthday....
Yay today is my birthday!
*excitement faltering*
But there really is nothing to be excited about....it feels just like any other day...except that i am officially 15 now.....though i have been saying i'm 15 since the start of the year.....
and i really don't see a point in being happy about the day i was born into this hell call the world....and most of the time i just want to die to end the pain...so what is the point of celebrating the day i was brought forth into this hell...?
life sucks....i haven't been on for like a week..misses so much stuff..school is as sucky as ever....AP bio is killing me....and all the other classes are hateful too...i feel like i've got no life except for study study stufy.....and my personal life is dropping too.....though i don't really want to talk about that......it just hurts to talk about things like that....i rather keep that inside of me where i keep almost everything else.......it hurts less and is safer that way..........
i dunno why i am in suck a bd mood....things happened yesterday....yesterday was a horrible day....everything pissed me off....and when our lunch table was taken by a bunch of....black people (not trying to be racist)...that totally pissed me off! I almost yelled at them to fuck off and die or something.....except some of my more innocent friends were around so i controled myself. I dunno....i think this whole year has been bad...or just since school started.....fucking life.......
*excitement faltering*
But there really is nothing to be excited about....it feels just like any other day...except that i am officially 15 now.....though i have been saying i'm 15 since the start of the year.....
and i really don't see a point in being happy about the day i was born into this hell call the world....and most of the time i just want to die to end the pain...so what is the point of celebrating the day i was brought forth into this hell...?
life sucks....i haven't been on for like a week..misses so much stuff..school is as sucky as ever....AP bio is killing me....and all the other classes are hateful too...i feel like i've got no life except for study study stufy.....and my personal life is dropping too.....though i don't really want to talk about that......it just hurts to talk about things like that....i rather keep that inside of me where i keep almost everything else.......it hurts less and is safer that way..........
i dunno why i am in suck a bd mood....things happened yesterday....yesterday was a horrible day....everything pissed me off....and when our lunch table was taken by a bunch of....black people (not trying to be racist)...that totally pissed me off! I almost yelled at them to fuck off and die or something.....except some of my more innocent friends were around so i controled myself. I dunno....i think this whole year has been bad...or just since school started.....fucking life.......