i love him
last night i started to write you a letter... hoping that youd be able to read it... then i just started writing down my thoughts... most were "i miss you" or "i love you"... and i was still hoping youd be able to read it. in the middle of your letter i started to cry... and i just say there asking god why... when i was done writing it i read it all to myself... then i read it outloud hoping youd be able to hear me... i dont think you heard me... i looked around, hoping id be able to see you... i didnt see you... i looked in the mirror and all i saw was myself... i talked some more... trying once more... i still dont think you heard me... i look at my phone hoping that it will read "LiL Ethan is calling"... but my phone doesnt ring anymore... at first my letter started off as an apology... but it ended up telling you the things i never did. bryan sent me a song... and it hit the spot and made me cry. i had been looking for a song for you... but i couldnt find one worthy enough. luckily bryan was sent to me... i listen to his song on repeat. i listen to our songs all day... you know.... our special songs. i was thinking about going to borders, hoping that youd call and make fun of me. last night i cried myself to sleep... and whispered how much i missed and loved you. i hope you heard me.
i love you.