Hey everybody! I'm back!.... potatoes
I just got this impulse to look at my livejournal, and i read a couple of my old entries. Man, do things change. Then, it came to my attention that i haven't shared my life with the members of the livejournal community, and what kind of resident would i be of said community if i didn't rectify said lack of participation? A bad one, thats what kind.
So i haven't written anything since school started, so lets start back at point A.
We won nationals. That night was one of the best of my life. It really is rare to put so much effort and time and tears and blood and sweat into something and have it be paid back to you in a way that makes you forget all the frustration prior to that point. I actually punched Brittany Dargis in the face and didn't realize it, i was so excited. It really is amazing to be recognized in a way that will stay with you for the rest of your life. The football players can have New Jersey, and they can be called down to the office so college reps can give them all head so they'll attend whatever college. I'll take the country any day, even if admissions officers aren't banging down my door. And i still haven't taken that fucking sweatband off, and i have no intention of doing so.
Play sucked, plain and simple. In the end, i did it because i wanted to be around the people that i might never see again after this year. The actual production could have sucked, and i don't really think it would have bothered me that much. Was i pissed i didn't get the lead? Sure, i was. The directors told me that i was going to, and i was pulled out into the hall during auditions so that they could tell me how to perform so that i would get the lead. And i was still shafted. So you know what? Fuck those guys. Who needs they're shitty play anyway? I'll take the company of those people any day over the lead in a high school play. The sound of music sucks anyway.
I've been teaching myself how to play the guitar. Its nice. I love the sound of it, and i love choosing which songs i learn. Its nice to do something creative like that at your own pace, and not have to worry about deadlines and all that follows. Everyone should have a hobby like that.
Was college a fucking roller coaster or what? I haven't decided completely where i'm going, but god are my options not what i thought they would be. I wanted to get into BC like crazy, and i thought for sure that i would get into Syracuse. And i was in no way expecting good news from NYU for the Tisch film school. I made the bulk of my creative film reel in an afternoon, i edited it in under a week, and sent it out to the school a day after the deadline. The fact that i was accepted is absolutely insane. Hearing bad news from Syracuse was hard because everyone told me that it was such a good fit and i was definetly going to get in there. But all the frustration left when NYU came. And BC's rejection hardly meant anything to me. In a way, the acceptance from NYU is like a confirmation that yes, i am good at film. I only started making real movies in September, so the fact that i got into the premier film program in the country is a small miracle to me. I still kind of can't believe it, and who knows, i might not even end up there. But in my mind, the decision is already final.
I won first place in forensics again. Four years in a row baby, i made immaculata history as the first kid to ever do that. Balls yeah. And my piece was about people fucking couches, go me.
I'm in love with Jaselle. Its the craziest thing. I had always liked her, but i never really let myself pursue it because of my relationship with Chelsea. And i'm sure everyone in the livejournal community is VERY well informed about that, so i'll just continue. We've been going out since december, and it hasn't all been great. But there are times when she is all i can think about, and god do i miss her when she's away. She really can't come back from vacation any sooner. We told each other that we would stay together into college, and i hope that we do. I don't care about the distance, and the challenges presented by that type of relationship. What i do care about is that she is one of the best things in my life right now, and i have no intention of letting something like that go just because of a couple of miles. Its not always easy to say i love you, because sometimes i wonder what love is, because i don't have anything else to compare it to in my life. But then there are times when i am so sure that i don't care if i end up getting hurt so bad that i can't bear it. Because its the truth, and i don't intend to keep it to myself. I love her.
And i have a job now. It sucks. But i need money, badly. College is expensive. Need... money.....
So now we arrive at point B. I hope that the livejournal community is now up to speed, so when the tests are distributed, there will be no cause for concern.
So i haven't written anything since school started, so lets start back at point A.
We won nationals. That night was one of the best of my life. It really is rare to put so much effort and time and tears and blood and sweat into something and have it be paid back to you in a way that makes you forget all the frustration prior to that point. I actually punched Brittany Dargis in the face and didn't realize it, i was so excited. It really is amazing to be recognized in a way that will stay with you for the rest of your life. The football players can have New Jersey, and they can be called down to the office so college reps can give them all head so they'll attend whatever college. I'll take the country any day, even if admissions officers aren't banging down my door. And i still haven't taken that fucking sweatband off, and i have no intention of doing so.
Play sucked, plain and simple. In the end, i did it because i wanted to be around the people that i might never see again after this year. The actual production could have sucked, and i don't really think it would have bothered me that much. Was i pissed i didn't get the lead? Sure, i was. The directors told me that i was going to, and i was pulled out into the hall during auditions so that they could tell me how to perform so that i would get the lead. And i was still shafted. So you know what? Fuck those guys. Who needs they're shitty play anyway? I'll take the company of those people any day over the lead in a high school play. The sound of music sucks anyway.
I've been teaching myself how to play the guitar. Its nice. I love the sound of it, and i love choosing which songs i learn. Its nice to do something creative like that at your own pace, and not have to worry about deadlines and all that follows. Everyone should have a hobby like that.
Was college a fucking roller coaster or what? I haven't decided completely where i'm going, but god are my options not what i thought they would be. I wanted to get into BC like crazy, and i thought for sure that i would get into Syracuse. And i was in no way expecting good news from NYU for the Tisch film school. I made the bulk of my creative film reel in an afternoon, i edited it in under a week, and sent it out to the school a day after the deadline. The fact that i was accepted is absolutely insane. Hearing bad news from Syracuse was hard because everyone told me that it was such a good fit and i was definetly going to get in there. But all the frustration left when NYU came. And BC's rejection hardly meant anything to me. In a way, the acceptance from NYU is like a confirmation that yes, i am good at film. I only started making real movies in September, so the fact that i got into the premier film program in the country is a small miracle to me. I still kind of can't believe it, and who knows, i might not even end up there. But in my mind, the decision is already final.
I won first place in forensics again. Four years in a row baby, i made immaculata history as the first kid to ever do that. Balls yeah. And my piece was about people fucking couches, go me.
I'm in love with Jaselle. Its the craziest thing. I had always liked her, but i never really let myself pursue it because of my relationship with Chelsea. And i'm sure everyone in the livejournal community is VERY well informed about that, so i'll just continue. We've been going out since december, and it hasn't all been great. But there are times when she is all i can think about, and god do i miss her when she's away. She really can't come back from vacation any sooner. We told each other that we would stay together into college, and i hope that we do. I don't care about the distance, and the challenges presented by that type of relationship. What i do care about is that she is one of the best things in my life right now, and i have no intention of letting something like that go just because of a couple of miles. Its not always easy to say i love you, because sometimes i wonder what love is, because i don't have anything else to compare it to in my life. But then there are times when i am so sure that i don't care if i end up getting hurt so bad that i can't bear it. Because its the truth, and i don't intend to keep it to myself. I love her.
And i have a job now. It sucks. But i need money, badly. College is expensive. Need... money.....
So now we arrive at point B. I hope that the livejournal community is now up to speed, so when the tests are distributed, there will be no cause for concern.