BLAH
gosh i hate it when you type something and then it all gets erased...
well yeah so i was saying how there is this one person i dont understand. i dont get how you can trust someone and tell them everything and then one day just say im not going to tell you anything ever again. nothing even happened..that person just decided that they are going to do what they want and when they want. id ont understand. why do i keep finding best friends and giving them parts of my heart and then i never get those back. i dont understand. why cant i find that one who will be there for me like i was for them..whatever..i have found one person who understands me...who has stuck thruogh alot of crap with me and who is still here today with me. he is absolutley amazing! I THINK IM IN LOVE! kinda scary though...its almost 7 months and im just praying and hoping that my heart doesnt get stolen or shoved back in my face again. im so happy when we are together. it just scares me. can i be in love this soon in the game? its not really a game but i didnt know what to call it. im not sure. i keep telling myself that love is ging to come and go as it pleases. LIFE IS GOING TO HAPPEN. but witht that i have to remember that everything happens for a reason. sometimes i dont understand it..and these last couple of months im definetley not getting it.
still no car...trying to learn to drive a manual...ITS THE FUNNIEST THING YOU WILL EVER SEE...
sorry this is just a venting entry...i had to get it out.
maybe i will get help from it..maybe i wont!
dinner and a movie tonight..im so EXCITED! i cant wait...its like our 2nd real date. I LOVE HIM!