this is fact not fiction

[mushybrains]

1. i have the worst form of ear worm ever - 'APPLE BOTTOM JEANS BOOTS WITH THE FURRR ---- LOOKIN' AT HERR SHE HIT THE FLOOR --- GO GO GO', bits and pieces absorbed from stupid shops blasting it over the radio. the blanks represent all the parts i don't subconciously know, unfortunately these few sentences are on repeat. poans, i even started mixing it with I GOT IT FROM MY MOMMA I GOT IT FROM MY MOMMA and IF YOU SEE US IN THE CLUB WE'LL BE ACTIN' RRREAL NICE IF YOU SEE US ON THE FLOORRR YOU'LL BE WATCHIN' ALLL NIGHT' zzrrzrr hahhah
   oh god.
   
   
2. i've been thinking (yes i have!) about what the worst part of growing up is. top of the list so far is - struggling with the fact that you may not be able to do or achieve anything you want to. before you scoff and laugh at me and tell me that HAH! you have bought into the whole walt disney enterprise, complete with the fairy tale ending where all your dreams come true. disney has already pre-empted these cynical thoughts.
   When you rush around in hopeless circles
   Searching ev'rywhere for something true
   You're a t the age of not believing
   When all the "make believe" is through
   
   When you set aside your childhood heroes
   And your dreams are lost up on a shelf
   You're a t the age of not believing
   And worst of all you doubt yourself
   
   You're a castaway where no one hears you
   On a barren isle in a lonely sea
   Where did all the happy endings go?
   Where can all the good times be?
   
   You must face the age of not believing
   Doubting ev'rything you ever knew
   Until at last you start believing
   There's something wonderful...
   Truly wonderful in you
   
   - The Age of Not Believing (Classic Disney!)
   don't laugh all, i truthfully believe i am going through this right now.
   
   
3. learnt today that if i don't continue wearing my jaw/mouthguard, my teeth are going to be so worn down i will have to undergo massive dental reconstruction. to this my overactive lyric driven mind said: WORN MY DOWN LIKE A ROAD I DID ANYTHING YOU TOLD WORN ME DOWN TO MY KNEES I DID ANYTHING TO PLEASE
   
   
4. said overactive mind has been plaguing me for quite long now. sleep (SLEEPLESS LONG NIGHTS THAT IS WHAT MY YOUTH IS FOR) has been elusive of late, i either take ages to fall asleep, wake up at odd times or have to rely on pills. melatonin has stopped working! argg. IT'S GOTTEN LATE NOW I WANT TO BE ALONE