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Great, so I think I need happy pills. I am now lashing out at my family for no good reason. Well, for good reasons, but none that are their fault. I know it's a combination of: 1) hardly any good postings on Monster, Craig's List, and ajcjobs.com since I've started looking in September, 2) the fact that I am pretty sure I'm going to move to Ft. Myers in January because they have slightly better job opportunities for me, believe it or not, 3) I'm taking my medicine three times a day now, and most people on accutain only take it once a day, so my mood swings as a result are so fucking ridiculous, 4) the tiniest thing is enough to set me off (case in point, my ridiculous anger at Brandon Friday night/Saturday morning). Plus, I was a complete jerk and idiot on Saturday when under the influence, so that's gnawing at me, and I hate myself for some really jerky things that happened then.
So... I think I need happy pills. I think that I am purposely doing things to fuck things up in my life right now, be it some friendships, some opportunities for work and other things, and just... everything. Why do I constantly screw up?
So... I think I need happy pills. I think that I am purposely doing things to fuck things up in my life right now, be it some friendships, some opportunities for work and other things, and just... everything. Why do I constantly screw up?