canada!! ....here i dont come? lol makes no sense
so i was asked if candy and me were having problems. my response not that i know of we dont talk so i dont know. well have u read her journal? i said no, i went ahead and read it..this is what i read..:
"Okay, so now my b/f thinks Shane is attractive. What next. Why do I always get the fucked up ones? My ex-friends are all fucked up, my friends now are fucked up or their dealing with a fucked up situations or my fucked up ex-friends, my family is fucked up, now I'm fucked up because I can't escape. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! Hmm, escape... mira, se ve como la palabre escape! oh well. Finally got another job, I'm training to be a manager at Pizza Hut, so that's cool, and the people I work with are awesome... except for the shift supervisors... their a bunch of douche bags. Brenny's a short fag and whatever-the-chicks-name-is sounds and acts like an annoying Joan Cusack. Other than than, an old friend of mine from back in the day of Jeremiah works there, Ryan, and Sean, who's also pretty cool.
So my sister hung out with the dirty lesbian today. It pisses me off because all Jenn's doing is using her, but whatever, I'm sure Tinsel's a good judge of character, you know? I mean the same chick that got me living in my car and wouldn't help me because her beloved, fat, and pregnant psycho 'wifey' was more important (you know, the same one that tried to stab her and get her arrested and took the bed and beat not only thier dog, but Jenn as well) got my 17-year-old sister high today. so I'm sure they both had a blast. Fuck this shit man. I can't take this psycho anymore. She makes me sick. I wish I could just disappear. No, just run away, and take those few friends with me and we'll go to Canada and live peacefully in a smarter and farther away country from here. Fuck America. Land of the Free. Yeah right, free of intelligent people that could actually turn this place around. Fuck this. I should just save up all my money I'll be making, pack my bags, and disappear. Move somewhere else and start over, knowing what I know now. Fuck Paul, fuck Tinsel, Jenn and Jecci can just die... just fuck everyone. I wish I could get over this anger, but Jenn deliberatly tries to stay in my life, wether it be so that she can run to me for those 15 minutes a month that she breaks up with Jecci, or she doens't get her car issues fixed so my name's stuck on it, or she starts hanging out with my sister... ahh the next victim. Sooner or later, my sister will start smoking cigarettes again, and probably pot, drop out of school like I did because she thinks she's stupid or she doesn't know what to do anymore, she'll end up working her ass off just to survive and will be even more miserable than she is now. POT ISN'T GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL ANY BETTER YOU FUCKING IDIOT! I fucking date a pothead and I don't do it because I know what it does and why it's not good for you. It's not gonna help you lose weight or anything. Maybe I'm just pissed off because I expected more out of Tinsel. I mean she's my own sister right? I should expect that my sister won't be retarded and do things she knows is bad for her or she knows will only get her all fucked up in the head. When I told Tinsel that I thought she was a dumbass for hanging out with Jenn, you know what she said? "It's okay, I won't let her do to me what she did to you, I only hang out with her like once every 3 months, so it's not like she'll be able to use me or anything." HELLO!!!! IS ANYBODY HOME!!!!! You douche bag, it's not how much time you spend together, it's how much the two of you communicate whatsoever. Fuck it Tinsel, you're perfect. You're a big girl now, but remember this: the next time you're having one of those I'm-feeling-sorry-for-myself-days or you and Jenn get into a fight or you find out Jenn's using you... again... don't come to me. I don't care anymore. Go ahead, smoke up... be cool like the rest of the gang... but in doing so, you will never come out on top. Ever. Good luck with your life because from now on, I don't give a shit about it anymore. Oh, and when you read this, give yourself some time to come up with a good comeback before you call me, because your defense mechanism isn't going to work here."
mmm...alrighty. well i tried replying but im not on her friends list (thank god)
so ill just respond here. dont think she'll see it tho. but its worth a try. im not good with comebacks or anything like that. just wrote what i was thinking.
i was told to read this. it was a amusing post. being a hypocrit must be fun bc i remember hearing u say on the phone how u smoke every night and are high all the time. i dont smoke everyday and tinsel can make her on decisions on life. i told her she didnt have to. and btw it wasnt me that made her smoke. someone else was there. i hung out with tinsel bc i wanted to, not bc i want to still be in ur life. im not using her for anything other than hanging out with her bc i want to still stay in touch with her. shes not stupid shes smart and can make the right decisions in life. shes got 3 more months to go for school. im sure shes staying and gonna graduate to prove everyone wrong. its better than what i could do or what you could do. i havent done a thing to you but if u wanna refer to me as pyscho or whatever u please go right ahead bc i dont resort to name calling.
btw make sure u keep this job more than 3wks. good example ur setting for ur younger sisters. so ive heard.
i didnt have u living in ur car. that was ur choice. i told u to stay at my place but sinc eu dont wanna grow up about hating jecci so much that u wanna kill her or cant be within 5 ft of her u choose to sleep in ur car. and she was actually gonna leave to stay at a friends but u didnt wanna stay. that was ur choice.
jecci didnt beat my dog, her parents took the bed. but nice try on that one. dont complain about other peoples lives or get involved in them bc i dont see ur life being any better.
please do disappear bc im sure it would make alot of people happy. im not the pyscho. u need to think about the things u say. u really still are a kid so whatever it doesnt phase me what u say. ive got better things and more important things to worry about. im hope im not bothered again to read whatever bullshit u feel like writing in here. have a nice life