Oct 06, 2011 21:43
4 out of 5.
1 year working at my job has been quantified as 4 out of 5.
This is what my supervisor told me when he met with me for my review at the Tully's Coffee branch steps away from our office. He said that I was the easiest agent he had to work with. I did my job efficiently and I had good product knowledge. I was very rarely late or absent, and I was actually selling cruises. I would also be getting a raise shortly.
This has been my most permanent job so far, and my supervisor has been the greatest. They really take care of their employees here. My supervisor has recently been promoted to the Group Department as well, as is looking for me to join him there.
Why do I feel it's not enough, then?
Y talked to me about it recently. He's always been very supportive of me, and wants me to take a film-related job or study again. He is very far-sighted. He knows that even though he has a crappy job right now, at least it will bring him closer to his foreseen future of being an architect.
My job right now has a future as well, just not one I've imagined for myself. Years from now, it's not impossible for me to become a supervisor here. I may be pretty happy and content, going on a cruise at least once a year. That possibility has always presented itself to me. They want me to study more, and the company is giving an incentive to study business or a related course.
For the past few weeks, I've been weighing in my options, especially since I'm planning to go back to school by next year. Going to art school to study animation will be considerably expensive, but at least it's what I want to do. Going to business school would be a lot cheaper, especially with the company helping me out, but it's still a considerable investment of 2 years, and is still quite an amount of money.
So I've come to the decision to study animation starting next year. The finances will be pretty tough, but I'll manage somehow.
I'm sure my supervisor will be pretty disappointed with my decision. I think he thinks that I could go far in the company. He is a great friend and has always helped me out, professionally. I probably could not have received my earlier promotion if it wasn't for him.
As we were walking back to the office after my review, he told me that he and his partner just moved into an apartment just walking distance to the office, and wanted to invite me to their housewarming when they finish unpacking. I told him that I would be happy to go.
I did not tell him that last night, I dreamed that he his partner adopted me as their son, along with a little girl who they made their daughter. We were a very happy family, in my dream at least. I shudder to think what my subconscious is trying to tell me.
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