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explosiverabbit
L.A.V.I.Can we say "major issues with a capital I-S-S-U-E-S?" First and foremost, it's safe to say that anything she ever feels ever for L.A.V.I. runs so deep that it's impossible to really describe it without breaking the character limit. She loves likes him as much as she despises him, and she needs him as much as she wants to say she doesn't. Everything is parallel.
On one hand, she absolutely, positively, without a shadow of a doubt, cannot come to grips with what happened to Daisya, and how Lavi was involved with it. In the grand scheme of things, that's the major veil over her eyes. She can't get past it, and I think to a degree she never, ever will. She hates how Lavi can go on pretending that Daisya had never existed (except in those times that the two get so shitfaced that their losses are the only things they can talk about) and she hates that he can continue to go on like nothing happened when she damn well knows that he does. To her, that's like squashing the beetle under the boot and moving on with your life without looking back.
At the same time, though: he puts up with her bullshit, and he puts her in her place. She needs him in order to do what she does - whether it's re-synching her Innocence, or building her weapons. What's even more infuriating is that he is the only real constant in her life, since they travel a lot together. And it isn't like she can just go and get another hacker; he's the only one who really knows what's going on. Furthermore... there's just. Something. She can't. Quite. Get into words about him. As much as she wants to hate him, she can't. She just can't.
It's a confusing myriad of emotions and feelings that she feels for him. And the best thing to do when it comes to confusion is to pretend like they aren't there. Butterfly likes things to be clean, simple, and straight to the point, and the fact that they aren't when it comes to Lavi is so infuriating that she can't get past it. I'd probably go so far as to say she's afraid of it, mostly of the guilt she feels because she doesn't hate him as much as she wants to, and so the only thing she can try to do is to try and make him go away. What better way to do that than to break his heart?
I think she's the most genuine with him when she's drunk, as horrible as that sounds. Because when she's drunk, she can still keep him at an arm's length, but also fulfill those... erm, needs... that she can't ask for when she's sober. Idk, it's... it's complicated.
circussniper
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twospiritedly
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explosiverabbit
L.A.V.I.Can we say "major issues with a capital I-S-S-U-E-S?" First and foremost, it's safe to say that anything she ever feels ever for L.A.V.I. runs so deep that it's impossible to really describe it without breaking the character limit. She loves likes him as much as she despises him, and she needs him as much as she wants to say she doesn't. Everything is parallel.
On one hand, she absolutely, positively, without a shadow of a doubt, cannot come to grips with what happened to Daisya, and how Lavi was involved with it. In the grand scheme of things, that's the major veil over her eyes. She can't get past it, and I think to a degree she never, ever will. She hates how Lavi can go on pretending that Daisya had never existed (except in those times that the two get so shitfaced that their losses are the only things they can talk about) and she hates that he can continue to go on like nothing happened when she damn well knows that he does. To her, that's like squashing the beetle under the boot and moving on with your life without looking back.
At the same time, though: he puts up with her bullshit, and he puts her in her place. She needs him in order to do what she does - whether it's re-synching her Innocence, or building her weapons. What's even more infuriating is that he is the only real constant in her life, since they travel a lot together. And it isn't like she can just go and get another hacker; he's the only one who really knows what's going on. Furthermore... there's just. Something. She can't. Quite. Get into words about him. As much as she wants to hate him, she can't. She just can't.
It's a confusing myriad of emotions and feelings that she feels for him. And the best thing to do when it comes to confusion is to pretend like they aren't there. Butterfly likes things to be clean, simple, and straight to the point, and the fact that they aren't when it comes to Lavi is so infuriating that she can't get past it. I'd probably go so far as to say she's afraid of it, mostly of the guilt she feels because she doesn't hate him as much as she wants to, and so the only thing she can try to do is to try and make him go away. What better way to do that than to break his heart?
I think she's the most genuine with him when she's drunk, as horrible as that sounds. Because when she's drunk, she can still keep him at an arm's length, but also fulfill those... erm, needs... that she can't ask for when she's sober. Idk, it's... it's complicated.
circussniper
SproutInfo to come~
twospiritedly
AlmaInfo to come~