your actions write the melodies to the songs we sing
I posted a story yesterday, inspired by some of the pics from the filming of Captain America/Winter Soldier:
It will often be mysterious (@ AO3)
Avengers (2012); Steve/Natasha; g; 1,630 words
Steve's done a lot of stupid things in his life, but trusting Natasha isn't one of them.
Basically, it's an exercise in "Oh, Steve," if that is your thing.
Also, here is what basically amounts to my Steve/Bucky/Natasha (in all permutations) playlist.
I'm ready to grow young again: A Steve/Bucky/Natasha OT3 playlist
Best Winter - Tom McRae
[Singing with no shame in this broken choir
Songs to save you from the fire
Home before the liquor and echoes fade
Sleeping in the shadow of the Empire State]
Bobby Jean - Bruce Springsteen
[Now you hung with me when all the others
turned away turned up their nose
We liked the same music, we liked the same bands
we liked the same clothes]
In the Still of the Night - Ella Fitzgerald
[In the still of the night
As I gaze from my window
At the moon in its flight
My thoughts all stray to you]
If I Should Fall Behind - Bruce Springsteen
[We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we're walking a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me ]
Sorrow - The National
[Sorrow found me when I was young
Sorrow waited, sorrow won
Sorrow they put me on the pill
It's in my honey, it's in my milk ]
Never Let Me Go - Florence + the Machine
[Though the pressure's hard to take
It's the only way I can escape
It seems a heavy choice to make
And now I am under all
And it's breaking over me]
Summer Wind - Frank Sinatra
[The autumn wind and the winter winds,
they have come and gone
And still the days, those lonely days,
they go on and on
And guess who sighs his lullabies through nights that never end
My fickle friend, the summer wind]
*
World Spins Madly On - the Weepies
[Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on]
Adventures in Solitude - the New Pornographers
[We thought we lost you
We thought we lost you
We thought we lost you
Welcome back]
Old Haunts - Gaslight Anthem
[So don't sing me your songs about the good times
Those days are gone and you should just let them go
And god help the man who says "If you'd've known me when..."
Old haunts are for forgotten ghosts]
Hell's Heroes - Empires
[Sometimes I get lost in the morning
Sometimes I get lost at night
Sometimes I throw up in the evening
Sometimes I throw up in the night]
Please - Tom McRae
[Walk the world side to side,
place where hidden memories lie
and I buried you there along with your history]
Shake It Out - Florence + the Machine
[And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn]
Fly - Nicki Minaj f. Rihanna
[I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly]
Terrible Love - The National
[And I can't fall asleep
Without a little help
It takes awhile
To settle down
My ship of hopes
Wait 'til the past leaks out]
*
We Did It When We Were Young - Gaslight Anthem
[And I cannot hold a candle for every pretty gun
We were strangers, many hours, and I missed you for so long
When we were lions, lovers in combat
Faded like your name on those jeans that I burned
But I am older now
And we did it when we were young]
Summer of John Wayne - Tom McRae
[A summer of John Wayne getting older, reel after reel,
and playing old soldiers with old wounds, you know how that feels.
And a summer of searching the underworld, an arrow in my heel]
Homewrecked - Empires
[Your war is in your heart
You're gonna find it out again
Don't be afraid of anything
You're never going back again]
Teenage Rebellion - Gaslight Anthem
[And I used to die every night
All in your honor
in your honor, oh in your honor
While you were gone
While you were gone ]
Going Down - Thea Gilmore
[Well heaven knows the way things go
With ticker tape and radios
The good fight was lost long ago
And bravery doesn't live in those
Who're going down
And I'm going down]
Stay Lucky - Gaslight Anthem
[And it feels like all you'd have to do is step outside
Stop pacing around and waiting for some moment
that might never arrive
But you're never gonna find it
Like when you were young
and everybody used to call you Lucky]
Always - Panic at the Disco
[It was always you
Falling for me
Now there's always time
Calling for me
I'm the light blinking at the end of the road
Blink back to let me know]
My Beautiful Defence - Thea Gilmore
[And you looked so sad with all those ghosts on your tail
When they claw at your skin you're all secrets and veils
You say "It's dragging me under the riptide" and I said
"When the whole world comes down,
I'll hold it up round your head"]
Mess - Empires
[Strike out all the windows
Of my soul
Give me all your madness
Make me whole
If it's a mess you're in, I'm in
If it's a mess you're in, I'm in]
*
Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise - Avett Brothers
[There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I'll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out]
No Light, No Light - Florence + the Machine
[Would you leave me,
If I told you what I've done?
And would you need me,
If I told you what I've become?
'cause it's so easy,
To say it to a crowd
But it's so hard, my love,
To say it to you out loud]
Hard Times - Empires
[Does anybody else know
Does anybody else know
Does anybody else know you like I do
Does anybody else know
Does anybody else know you like I do
I found heaven in hard times
I found the crazy place where it all hides]
Halo - Beyonce
[It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out]
Bedroom Hymns - Florence + the Machine
[I'm not here looking for absolution
Because I found myself an old solution
I'm not here looking for absolution
Because I found myself an old solution
This is his body
This is his love
Such selfish prayers, I can't get enough]
Chelsea Morning - Joni Mitchell
[Woke up, it was a Chelsea morning, and the first thing that I knew
There was milk and toast and honey and a bowl of oranges, too
And the sun poured in like butterscotch and stuck to all my senses
Oh, won't you stay
We'll put on the day
And we'll talk in present tenses]
I And Love And You - Avett Brothers
[Three words that became hard to say
I and love and you
What you were then, I am today
Look at the things I do
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in
Are you aware the shape I'm in
My hands they shake my head it spins
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in]
No Surrender - Bruce Springsteen
[We made a promise we swore we'd always remember
No retreat, baby, no surrender
Like soldiers in the winter's night with a vow to defend
No retreat, baby, no surrender]
download from here.
It's not really a mixtape, since I listen to it on shuffle and didn't really do more than sort it roughly by era/relationship, rather than work out the best segues etc., but here are 32 songs that are in heavy rotation while I write.
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This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/576472.html.
people have commented there.
It will often be mysterious (@ AO3)
Avengers (2012); Steve/Natasha; g; 1,630 words
Steve's done a lot of stupid things in his life, but trusting Natasha isn't one of them.
Basically, it's an exercise in "Oh, Steve," if that is your thing.
Also, here is what basically amounts to my Steve/Bucky/Natasha (in all permutations) playlist.
I'm ready to grow young again: A Steve/Bucky/Natasha OT3 playlist
Best Winter - Tom McRae
[Singing with no shame in this broken choir
Songs to save you from the fire
Home before the liquor and echoes fade
Sleeping in the shadow of the Empire State]
Bobby Jean - Bruce Springsteen
[Now you hung with me when all the others
turned away turned up their nose
We liked the same music, we liked the same bands
we liked the same clothes]
In the Still of the Night - Ella Fitzgerald
[In the still of the night
As I gaze from my window
At the moon in its flight
My thoughts all stray to you]
If I Should Fall Behind - Bruce Springsteen
[We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we're walking a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me ]
Sorrow - The National
[Sorrow found me when I was young
Sorrow waited, sorrow won
Sorrow they put me on the pill
It's in my honey, it's in my milk ]
Never Let Me Go - Florence + the Machine
[Though the pressure's hard to take
It's the only way I can escape
It seems a heavy choice to make
And now I am under all
And it's breaking over me]
Summer Wind - Frank Sinatra
[The autumn wind and the winter winds,
they have come and gone
And still the days, those lonely days,
they go on and on
And guess who sighs his lullabies through nights that never end
My fickle friend, the summer wind]
*
World Spins Madly On - the Weepies
[Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on]
Adventures in Solitude - the New Pornographers
[We thought we lost you
We thought we lost you
We thought we lost you
Welcome back]
Old Haunts - Gaslight Anthem
[So don't sing me your songs about the good times
Those days are gone and you should just let them go
And god help the man who says "If you'd've known me when..."
Old haunts are for forgotten ghosts]
Hell's Heroes - Empires
[Sometimes I get lost in the morning
Sometimes I get lost at night
Sometimes I throw up in the evening
Sometimes I throw up in the night]
Please - Tom McRae
[Walk the world side to side,
place where hidden memories lie
and I buried you there along with your history]
Shake It Out - Florence + the Machine
[And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn]
Fly - Nicki Minaj f. Rihanna
[I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
To fly
To fly]
Terrible Love - The National
[And I can't fall asleep
Without a little help
It takes awhile
To settle down
My ship of hopes
Wait 'til the past leaks out]
*
We Did It When We Were Young - Gaslight Anthem
[And I cannot hold a candle for every pretty gun
We were strangers, many hours, and I missed you for so long
When we were lions, lovers in combat
Faded like your name on those jeans that I burned
But I am older now
And we did it when we were young]
Summer of John Wayne - Tom McRae
[A summer of John Wayne getting older, reel after reel,
and playing old soldiers with old wounds, you know how that feels.
And a summer of searching the underworld, an arrow in my heel]
Homewrecked - Empires
[Your war is in your heart
You're gonna find it out again
Don't be afraid of anything
You're never going back again]
Teenage Rebellion - Gaslight Anthem
[And I used to die every night
All in your honor
in your honor, oh in your honor
While you were gone
While you were gone ]
Going Down - Thea Gilmore
[Well heaven knows the way things go
With ticker tape and radios
The good fight was lost long ago
And bravery doesn't live in those
Who're going down
And I'm going down]
Stay Lucky - Gaslight Anthem
[And it feels like all you'd have to do is step outside
Stop pacing around and waiting for some moment
that might never arrive
But you're never gonna find it
Like when you were young
and everybody used to call you Lucky]
Always - Panic at the Disco
[It was always you
Falling for me
Now there's always time
Calling for me
I'm the light blinking at the end of the road
Blink back to let me know]
My Beautiful Defence - Thea Gilmore
[And you looked so sad with all those ghosts on your tail
When they claw at your skin you're all secrets and veils
You say "It's dragging me under the riptide" and I said
"When the whole world comes down,
I'll hold it up round your head"]
Mess - Empires
[Strike out all the windows
Of my soul
Give me all your madness
Make me whole
If it's a mess you're in, I'm in
If it's a mess you're in, I'm in]
*
Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise - Avett Brothers
[There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I'll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out]
No Light, No Light - Florence + the Machine
[Would you leave me,
If I told you what I've done?
And would you need me,
If I told you what I've become?
'cause it's so easy,
To say it to a crowd
But it's so hard, my love,
To say it to you out loud]
Hard Times - Empires
[Does anybody else know
Does anybody else know
Does anybody else know you like I do
Does anybody else know
Does anybody else know you like I do
I found heaven in hard times
I found the crazy place where it all hides]
Halo - Beyonce
[It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out]
Bedroom Hymns - Florence + the Machine
[I'm not here looking for absolution
Because I found myself an old solution
I'm not here looking for absolution
Because I found myself an old solution
This is his body
This is his love
Such selfish prayers, I can't get enough]
Chelsea Morning - Joni Mitchell
[Woke up, it was a Chelsea morning, and the first thing that I knew
There was milk and toast and honey and a bowl of oranges, too
And the sun poured in like butterscotch and stuck to all my senses
Oh, won't you stay
We'll put on the day
And we'll talk in present tenses]
I And Love And You - Avett Brothers
[Three words that became hard to say
I and love and you
What you were then, I am today
Look at the things I do
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in
Are you aware the shape I'm in
My hands they shake my head it spins
Ah Brooklyn Brooklyn take me in]
No Surrender - Bruce Springsteen
[We made a promise we swore we'd always remember
No retreat, baby, no surrender
Like soldiers in the winter's night with a vow to defend
No retreat, baby, no surrender]
download from here.
It's not really a mixtape, since I listen to it on shuffle and didn't really do more than sort it roughly by era/relationship, rather than work out the best segues etc., but here are 32 songs that are in heavy rotation while I write.
***
This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/576472.html.
people have commented there.