but I'm like sweet seventeen a lot
What the hell is going on with gmail? first it was telling me it couldn't connect, then it wouldn't load at all (though iGoogle loaded fine), and now it will only load in html view. WTF?
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I am tired. I had an interview today that I think went well, and I was told they would be calling my references, but since the people at Job I Really Wanted But Did Not Get also called my references, I am trying not to get my hopes up. Also, my feet hurt, which makes it hard to be happy.
I have two interviews tomorrow, both in person, so that will be fun. *rolls eyes*
I think I am so focused on this stuff - sending out resumes, writing thank you notes, going to interviews, that I have no brain left for any of my wsip. The past couple of weeks have been way busier than it was earlier.
I guess we'll see what happens. You'll know when I do. *sigh*
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I have been wondering, based on various reactions to the girl!Sam stories I've written - it seems that even people who generally read and enjoy incest fic and who don't have a problem with always-a-girl AUs in general are sometimes more squicked by sibling hetcest than by brother/brother incest (or twincest, but I know a lot of people less squicked by that than 'regular' incest). And I find that really curious, because, as I've said a lot, I tend to ping for hetcest, and specifcally for older brother/younger sister hetcest, and yet even in girl!Sam stories where Sam is eighteen or older, people sometimes comment about feeling dirty or pervy in ways I've never seen them comment on regular boy/boy Wincest (at least, not to me, and they have occasionally commented on my regular boy/boy Wincest which is why I noticed the difference). Is it the pregnancy risk? the power dynamics? I admit that one reason I don't read much girl!Dean/Sam is that the power dynamics there bother me a lot - I feel like there is a much greater power differential in that equation, and Sam has all the power in ways that make me very uncomfortable in a not-fun way, whereas with boy/boy or Dean/girl!Sam, things are less weighted in one direction.
I thought about making a poll, but I couldn't figure out how to word it. I mean, I am not talking about non-incest reading people or non-het-liking people or non-always-a-girl-AU-liking people, and then I felt like it was all caveat and no poll, so I don't know. I've been told hetcest is squickier, but that just seems weird to me. I mean, sibling incest is squicky, absolutely, I get that. I am just always kind of bemused by where people draw their lines, and how they overlap or intersect or run parallel to mine.
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New Life tonight! I maybe will watch Trapdoor and Re-Entry again this evening in preparation. Hmm...
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I am tired. I had an interview today that I think went well, and I was told they would be calling my references, but since the people at Job I Really Wanted But Did Not Get also called my references, I am trying not to get my hopes up. Also, my feet hurt, which makes it hard to be happy.
I have two interviews tomorrow, both in person, so that will be fun. *rolls eyes*
I think I am so focused on this stuff - sending out resumes, writing thank you notes, going to interviews, that I have no brain left for any of my wsip. The past couple of weeks have been way busier than it was earlier.
I guess we'll see what happens. You'll know when I do. *sigh*
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I have been wondering, based on various reactions to the girl!Sam stories I've written - it seems that even people who generally read and enjoy incest fic and who don't have a problem with always-a-girl AUs in general are sometimes more squicked by sibling hetcest than by brother/brother incest (or twincest, but I know a lot of people less squicked by that than 'regular' incest). And I find that really curious, because, as I've said a lot, I tend to ping for hetcest, and specifcally for older brother/younger sister hetcest, and yet even in girl!Sam stories where Sam is eighteen or older, people sometimes comment about feeling dirty or pervy in ways I've never seen them comment on regular boy/boy Wincest (at least, not to me, and they have occasionally commented on my regular boy/boy Wincest which is why I noticed the difference). Is it the pregnancy risk? the power dynamics? I admit that one reason I don't read much girl!Dean/Sam is that the power dynamics there bother me a lot - I feel like there is a much greater power differential in that equation, and Sam has all the power in ways that make me very uncomfortable in a not-fun way, whereas with boy/boy or Dean/girl!Sam, things are less weighted in one direction.
I thought about making a poll, but I couldn't figure out how to word it. I mean, I am not talking about non-incest reading people or non-het-liking people or non-always-a-girl-AU-liking people, and then I felt like it was all caveat and no poll, so I don't know. I've been told hetcest is squickier, but that just seems weird to me. I mean, sibling incest is squicky, absolutely, I get that. I am just always kind of bemused by where people draw their lines, and how they overlap or intersect or run parallel to mine.
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New Life tonight! I maybe will watch Trapdoor and Re-Entry again this evening in preparation. Hmm...
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