a thread that has no end
Shockingly, Word was actually useful in making sure I didn't lose any of the edits on my harlequin - the compare documents tool works almost like track changes, except that you're comparing one version of a doc to another and accepting or rejecting changes based on that comparison. I had never used that particular tool before, mostly because I don't trust Word for a second.
I am 5160 words into this story, and I am afraid it might take that many more words to finish it. On the other hand, I am excited about all the ridiculous things I can put in here because of the time period, and the possibility of Dean + sword is making me a little lightheaded. I feel there should be more sword use in canon. Kripke should get on that, ASAP. I am thinking about that a lot, when I am not thinking about how they should do an episode about organ-stealing. And of course, bodyswap. But I figure everyone else is concentrating their mental energies on bodyswap, so I can spend most of my mental energy on organ-stealing. You know it would be awesome! I would write it myself if I didn't have a dozen other stories waiting. And also if I could figure out how it would actually work. I am still not so good with the casefile business.
I have been thinking about Sam/Jess/Dean a lot lately, too, and how I would like to write more of that, because it's one of the few threesomes I could see functioning over the long term (much like Harry/Ron/Hermione), but there's a specific way I want to write it and I need to let that percolate a little more, I think. I do want to do a Sam/Jess/Dean recs list for spnroundtable - there are some really excellent AUs dealing with Jess surviving the fire; I just haven't had time to comb through my recs and put the post together.
It's funny how easily I can compartmentalize my reccing/reading from my writing, and yet, the other day I was looking over a recs list and I was not on it at all, even though it was in a fandom in which I've written a lot, but then at the bottom, my recs were recced. Which ... yeah, it kind of gives me a twinge as a writer, like, the stories I like are really good, but the ones I write aren't worth reading? On the other hand, I'm always pleased when people do find my recs useful, as I know there are very specific types of stories I'm drawn to, above and beyond pairing or fandom, which you can see by the words I use to rec them (e.g., wistful, achy, heartbreaking, lyrical, etc.). So you know, we could title this part of the post, my issues, let me show you them, but it's more about how even though I've nattered on about reccing in post after post, there's still something not quite pin-down-able about why I rec one thing and not another, and I know this, and yet I still have to force myself to remember it when I am on the other end, as a writer wondering why I don't get recced.
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As I was uploading the Sirius/Remus fanmix last night, and the list of songs kept growing (I cut it off at 25, but it could have been much, much longer) I was like, dammit, I should have done Danny/Rusty! I only have, like, five songs for them!
I might still do a Firefly one. It would mostly consist of Jeffrey Foucault and Bruce Springsteen, but there's no way that could be bad, right? I was vidding "Live to Tell" in my head again yesterday, and I still think it's the perfect River/crew song, especially after the movie, because there are things in it that could encompass the whole crew.
I haven't done a Supernatural mix because I figured everyone else in the comm would, but I'm not sure I've actually seen one. That's another one that would be really long and have to be truncated. Because there are songs that are obviously songs Dean listens to, and there are songs I'd guess Sam probably likes (one day I will do a post about Sam and music, and how it's just not that important to him, which baffles me), and then there are songs that remind me of them that they - or Dean at least - wouldn't be caught dead listening to, but which are my soundtrack for writing them.
That's a question - when you do a mix, which is it? Is it songs you think the characters (would) like, or songs that remind you of them, or songs that inspire you to write, or what? Like, I have very strong opinions on what music Sirius and Remus listened to, and obviously, Dean has very strong opinions about what he will listen to, but there are also the songs that make *us* think of them. Because I'm a big music fan, because it plays such an integral role in my life (and my writing), I find that building a profile of what kind of music a character listens to is important to me (glam!Sirius is very popular, or was, in some circles, but I prefer punk!Sirius, myself, and indier-than-thou!Remus, it just makes more sense to me, given the timeline), but sometimes you run into a character who has no strong opinions one way or the other (like Sam, who I think likes a lot of different kinds of music just fine, but I don't get the feeling he cares about music the way Dean does), or who it's just impossible to judge (historical characters; characters in the future or in alternate universes [whatever, Ron Moore]), and wow I've totally gotten tangled up in my parentheticals here.
What I guess I mean is, some songs strike me as appropriate not because the characters would like them, but because they describe the character or relationship in a way that resonates for me, and sometimes a song can be both, but I try not to mix up "ooh, this song makes me think of Dean and Sam" with "Ooh, Dean would love this song," you know?
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I am 5160 words into this story, and I am afraid it might take that many more words to finish it. On the other hand, I am excited about all the ridiculous things I can put in here because of the time period, and the possibility of Dean + sword is making me a little lightheaded. I feel there should be more sword use in canon. Kripke should get on that, ASAP. I am thinking about that a lot, when I am not thinking about how they should do an episode about organ-stealing. And of course, bodyswap. But I figure everyone else is concentrating their mental energies on bodyswap, so I can spend most of my mental energy on organ-stealing. You know it would be awesome! I would write it myself if I didn't have a dozen other stories waiting. And also if I could figure out how it would actually work. I am still not so good with the casefile business.
I have been thinking about Sam/Jess/Dean a lot lately, too, and how I would like to write more of that, because it's one of the few threesomes I could see functioning over the long term (much like Harry/Ron/Hermione), but there's a specific way I want to write it and I need to let that percolate a little more, I think. I do want to do a Sam/Jess/Dean recs list for spnroundtable - there are some really excellent AUs dealing with Jess surviving the fire; I just haven't had time to comb through my recs and put the post together.
It's funny how easily I can compartmentalize my reccing/reading from my writing, and yet, the other day I was looking over a recs list and I was not on it at all, even though it was in a fandom in which I've written a lot, but then at the bottom, my recs were recced. Which ... yeah, it kind of gives me a twinge as a writer, like, the stories I like are really good, but the ones I write aren't worth reading? On the other hand, I'm always pleased when people do find my recs useful, as I know there are very specific types of stories I'm drawn to, above and beyond pairing or fandom, which you can see by the words I use to rec them (e.g., wistful, achy, heartbreaking, lyrical, etc.). So you know, we could title this part of the post, my issues, let me show you them, but it's more about how even though I've nattered on about reccing in post after post, there's still something not quite pin-down-able about why I rec one thing and not another, and I know this, and yet I still have to force myself to remember it when I am on the other end, as a writer wondering why I don't get recced.
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As I was uploading the Sirius/Remus fanmix last night, and the list of songs kept growing (I cut it off at 25, but it could have been much, much longer) I was like, dammit, I should have done Danny/Rusty! I only have, like, five songs for them!
I might still do a Firefly one. It would mostly consist of Jeffrey Foucault and Bruce Springsteen, but there's no way that could be bad, right? I was vidding "Live to Tell" in my head again yesterday, and I still think it's the perfect River/crew song, especially after the movie, because there are things in it that could encompass the whole crew.
I haven't done a Supernatural mix because I figured everyone else in the comm would, but I'm not sure I've actually seen one. That's another one that would be really long and have to be truncated. Because there are songs that are obviously songs Dean listens to, and there are songs I'd guess Sam probably likes (one day I will do a post about Sam and music, and how it's just not that important to him, which baffles me), and then there are songs that remind me of them that they - or Dean at least - wouldn't be caught dead listening to, but which are my soundtrack for writing them.
That's a question - when you do a mix, which is it? Is it songs you think the characters (would) like, or songs that remind you of them, or songs that inspire you to write, or what? Like, I have very strong opinions on what music Sirius and Remus listened to, and obviously, Dean has very strong opinions about what he will listen to, but there are also the songs that make *us* think of them. Because I'm a big music fan, because it plays such an integral role in my life (and my writing), I find that building a profile of what kind of music a character listens to is important to me (glam!Sirius is very popular, or was, in some circles, but I prefer punk!Sirius, myself, and indier-than-thou!Remus, it just makes more sense to me, given the timeline), but sometimes you run into a character who has no strong opinions one way or the other (like Sam, who I think likes a lot of different kinds of music just fine, but I don't get the feeling he cares about music the way Dean does), or who it's just impossible to judge (historical characters; characters in the future or in alternate universes [whatever, Ron Moore]), and wow I've totally gotten tangled up in my parentheticals here.
What I guess I mean is, some songs strike me as appropriate not because the characters would like them, but because they describe the character or relationship in a way that resonates for me, and sometimes a song can be both, but I try not to mix up "ooh, this song makes me think of Dean and Sam" with "Ooh, Dean would love this song," you know?
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