Unspoken
So, yeah, not dead. Hurrah xD
So a lot has been going on in the last 2 months. Firstly I went to Barcelona with my class at school for a week. That was a wicked trip :D
Got a new job, or well got promoted, so still working at the library, but now I'm behind the counter and everything =P And the pay is much better.
I work every Wednesday from 3-7pm and every 3rd Friday/Saturday.
Joined the "youth school's" musical. It's wicked :D lots of awesome people that I just really like. A lot. And Kasper is there and Simon-Gay and a lot of other people I know.
It's so cool to try something new, and learn something new. With the singing and the acting and everything.
It's every Thursday from 7-9pm and then after wards we usually go to the pub downtown and have a beer (or 7 xD) and it's just wicked.
And Kuno is their as well ^_^ so I get to see him at least once a week.
Kuno. Yeah. Still doing our whatever-it-is. But he's moved to Copenhagen so it's a bit more complicated now, but like I said before we see each other at least once a week at musical. And he usually spends the night at my place after and it's pretty damn great.
Only thing is that everything is still so very unspoken between us. Last time we even discussed what we were doing was like 5/6 weeks ago and neither of us have brought it up since.
5/6 weeks ago he said that: "it was nice to cuddle and watch movies and be all couple-y" but it wasn't anything more to him. And I was like "yeah, that's fine. I'm a big girl I can take care of myself." And then topic closed.
We've had this thing for more than 2 months now (11 weeks actually. Not that I'm counting) and I'm fine when I don't see him, but then sometimes I just miss him so much and I want him to care for him and hold me and love me, but I'll never bring it up 'cause I'm afraid of losing him all together. And I so know it's not healthy at all, but it just feels so right at times, like he really does care and I just don't want to let him go.
And I'm not really talking about it which really can't be that healthy either. The only one who might have some idea as to how deep I'm getting might be Kasper, and people really don't give that boy enough credit.
So, yeah, to sum up. I'm totally in love with the boy but won't admit it to anyone least of all myself 'cause then I'll get hurt I'm sure, and the only one who has any idea is Kasper.
And oh yeah. Accidentally made out with tall-one the other day if anyone remembers him, which I've told no one besides Lou' and Kristin.
But! The school's birthday was Friday night and like always there was a huge formal party at the school and like always it was brill :D Especially 'cause since we're seniors now we got the prettiest dresses and drove around in a limousine and had champagne and danced les lanciers in front of all the other students and teacher and families. And Kuno showed up later and we danced and talked with people and he introduced me to a lot of people he knew which might not be a big thing but makes me happy 'cause it means he's not trying to hide me at least.
And as a closing point: Me and Emil have kind of a playful flirting thing going on which is fun but really not the great. But hey, I refuse to feel guilty since we haven't done anything we shouldn't have. And he is good-looking and nice and funny and smart.
So a lot has been going on in the last 2 months. Firstly I went to Barcelona with my class at school for a week. That was a wicked trip :D
Got a new job, or well got promoted, so still working at the library, but now I'm behind the counter and everything =P And the pay is much better.
I work every Wednesday from 3-7pm and every 3rd Friday/Saturday.
Joined the "youth school's" musical. It's wicked :D lots of awesome people that I just really like. A lot. And Kasper is there and Simon-Gay and a lot of other people I know.
It's so cool to try something new, and learn something new. With the singing and the acting and everything.
It's every Thursday from 7-9pm and then after wards we usually go to the pub downtown and have a beer (or 7 xD) and it's just wicked.
And Kuno is their as well ^_^ so I get to see him at least once a week.
Kuno. Yeah. Still doing our whatever-it-is. But he's moved to Copenhagen so it's a bit more complicated now, but like I said before we see each other at least once a week at musical. And he usually spends the night at my place after and it's pretty damn great.
Only thing is that everything is still so very unspoken between us. Last time we even discussed what we were doing was like 5/6 weeks ago and neither of us have brought it up since.
5/6 weeks ago he said that: "it was nice to cuddle and watch movies and be all couple-y" but it wasn't anything more to him. And I was like "yeah, that's fine. I'm a big girl I can take care of myself." And then topic closed.
We've had this thing for more than 2 months now (11 weeks actually. Not that I'm counting) and I'm fine when I don't see him, but then sometimes I just miss him so much and I want him to care for him and hold me and love me, but I'll never bring it up 'cause I'm afraid of losing him all together. And I so know it's not healthy at all, but it just feels so right at times, like he really does care and I just don't want to let him go.
And I'm not really talking about it which really can't be that healthy either. The only one who might have some idea as to how deep I'm getting might be Kasper, and people really don't give that boy enough credit.
So, yeah, to sum up. I'm totally in love with the boy but won't admit it to anyone least of all myself 'cause then I'll get hurt I'm sure, and the only one who has any idea is Kasper.
And oh yeah. Accidentally made out with tall-one the other day if anyone remembers him, which I've told no one besides Lou' and Kristin.
But! The school's birthday was Friday night and like always there was a huge formal party at the school and like always it was brill :D Especially 'cause since we're seniors now we got the prettiest dresses and drove around in a limousine and had champagne and danced les lanciers in front of all the other students and teacher and families. And Kuno showed up later and we danced and talked with people and he introduced me to a lot of people he knew which might not be a big thing but makes me happy 'cause it means he's not trying to hide me at least.
And as a closing point: Me and Emil have kind of a playful flirting thing going on which is fun but really not the great. But hey, I refuse to feel guilty since we haven't done anything we shouldn't have. And he is good-looking and nice and funny and smart.