She has not died!
Hiya, folks.
Nope, not dead. Just disappeared again.
Let's just skip the last 2 weeks. Nothing interesting happened.
Except drunken bonding with Kristin. Again. She's the best.
Then saturday happened, with a party for my old class, with Mr. Boat's big sister and her friends in the other room to make sure to freaky people came.
With lots of, lots of drinking.
With me ending up making out with a 23-year-old, and yes, I am still dating tall-one.
Dammit.
In my shaky defense ('cause no matter what cheating is wrong) I must say I have no idea where my relationship with tall-one is these days. We hardly see each other, we hardly talk or it's like he's just humoring me by answering questions.
He calls me for a place to crash if he's at a party nearby and he's in the mood for a shag.
I've been confused for a while.
Now to return to this entry some 4 hours lately.
I had a kind of fight with Mr. Boat on the whole issue on msn. Then I blocked him and started crying. Then I texted him and we met up and I cried some more and we talked for around 30 minutes.
Now I'm home. And just worn out. I'm drinking tea and reading penny arcade.
I think I might be running on empty. I've hardly eaten in 2 days. Sleep, not happening either.
Tomorrow I'm gonna tell tall-one and we'll see what happens.
I don't wanna talk about this anymore.
Nope, not dead. Just disappeared again.
Let's just skip the last 2 weeks. Nothing interesting happened.
Except drunken bonding with Kristin. Again. She's the best.
Then saturday happened, with a party for my old class, with Mr. Boat's big sister and her friends in the other room to make sure to freaky people came.
With lots of, lots of drinking.
With me ending up making out with a 23-year-old, and yes, I am still dating tall-one.
Dammit.
In my shaky defense ('cause no matter what cheating is wrong) I must say I have no idea where my relationship with tall-one is these days. We hardly see each other, we hardly talk or it's like he's just humoring me by answering questions.
He calls me for a place to crash if he's at a party nearby and he's in the mood for a shag.
I've been confused for a while.
Now to return to this entry some 4 hours lately.
I had a kind of fight with Mr. Boat on the whole issue on msn. Then I blocked him and started crying. Then I texted him and we met up and I cried some more and we talked for around 30 minutes.
Now I'm home. And just worn out. I'm drinking tea and reading penny arcade.
I think I might be running on empty. I've hardly eaten in 2 days. Sleep, not happening either.
Tomorrow I'm gonna tell tall-one and we'll see what happens.
I don't wanna talk about this anymore.