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Too much stuff going on at once.... some of it is or was under my control, most not.
Feeling a little shell shocked by this move and other big changes/losses. I start to look ahead and feel a bit anxious about what's ahead, and then I have to step back and literally say "one day at a time" and/or "one thing at a time". Seriously.
And I've been repeating the serenity prayer many times, and meditating on it. A lot.
I'm on my last Unemployment extension. Reality crashing in. I talked with my former music ed classmate who is now employed in a public school and she's going to send me some contact names to see if I can get in with one for maybe one day a week or part of a day per week for some volunteering or at least observation. I need SOME edge in the door, since I'm a bit out of it, with having done my practicum in 2006 and not gotten a job in that field. Having the piano students has been good.
I'm getting things done, but I'm spending a lot of time feeling overwhelmed by everything. If that makes sense. But yes, I am getting things done. And I'm preparing myself to take any 'anything' type job after this extension if I don't have something I truly want.
I feel like such a big kid, and my birthday is coming this Sunday, reminding me that I'm continuing to get older. Not sure yet how I'm going to celebrate, though the day of the 14th is a big day, where I have to say goodbye to someone very important to me, who is moving away, and I'm not too happy about that :(
Feeling a little shell shocked by this move and other big changes/losses. I start to look ahead and feel a bit anxious about what's ahead, and then I have to step back and literally say "one day at a time" and/or "one thing at a time". Seriously.
And I've been repeating the serenity prayer many times, and meditating on it. A lot.
I'm on my last Unemployment extension. Reality crashing in. I talked with my former music ed classmate who is now employed in a public school and she's going to send me some contact names to see if I can get in with one for maybe one day a week or part of a day per week for some volunteering or at least observation. I need SOME edge in the door, since I'm a bit out of it, with having done my practicum in 2006 and not gotten a job in that field. Having the piano students has been good.
I'm getting things done, but I'm spending a lot of time feeling overwhelmed by everything. If that makes sense. But yes, I am getting things done. And I'm preparing myself to take any 'anything' type job after this extension if I don't have something I truly want.
I feel like such a big kid, and my birthday is coming this Sunday, reminding me that I'm continuing to get older. Not sure yet how I'm going to celebrate, though the day of the 14th is a big day, where I have to say goodbye to someone very important to me, who is moving away, and I'm not too happy about that :(