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Have you ever been scared about something? I mean really scared, to the point that you just want to curl up and hide from it all, hide from everything and hope the scary goes away?
No, I'm not talking about a scary movie, for all that I love them, that's not what I'm talking about. With a scary movie, its knowing that there will be an end, because it's a movie, and it's the adrenalin rush you get from watching that movie.
But what about the times when you dont know when it's going to end...when the fear you feel is real...and it terrifies you to know that there is going to be an end...no matter how much you don't want it, no matter how much you know its going to hurt when things begin to fall apart. Its terrifying to know that you can't do anything no matter how much you want to.
This fear makes peope feel apart, feel distant from everyone else...you think that, you're the only one who knows what this feeling feels like. Being alone terrifies me. Losing something that is precious to me, and the feeling, the emptiness inside is the worst part about fear.
Have you ever been there? to that place where you think if you hold your breath for long enough, that all of that pain will just....go away? That place where everyone says, there is going to be more, there always is, but you just cant seem to get out of that one moment. Have you ever felt....hollow?
Have you ever cared about someone or something so much, that when they were hurt you felt like there was nothing inside you....then you felt nothing at all.
It's one of the worst places to be, the place inside your head where only darkness lives. Have you been there before? Can you ever know who you are inside without going to that place at least once in your life? As much as everyone wants to deny it, you cant know who you are without knowing what the dark is like.
I fear the dark, inside and outside of me...
No, I'm not talking about a scary movie, for all that I love them, that's not what I'm talking about. With a scary movie, its knowing that there will be an end, because it's a movie, and it's the adrenalin rush you get from watching that movie.
But what about the times when you dont know when it's going to end...when the fear you feel is real...and it terrifies you to know that there is going to be an end...no matter how much you don't want it, no matter how much you know its going to hurt when things begin to fall apart. Its terrifying to know that you can't do anything no matter how much you want to.
This fear makes peope feel apart, feel distant from everyone else...you think that, you're the only one who knows what this feeling feels like. Being alone terrifies me. Losing something that is precious to me, and the feeling, the emptiness inside is the worst part about fear.
Have you ever been there? to that place where you think if you hold your breath for long enough, that all of that pain will just....go away? That place where everyone says, there is going to be more, there always is, but you just cant seem to get out of that one moment. Have you ever felt....hollow?
Have you ever cared about someone or something so much, that when they were hurt you felt like there was nothing inside you....then you felt nothing at all.
It's one of the worst places to be, the place inside your head where only darkness lives. Have you been there before? Can you ever know who you are inside without going to that place at least once in your life? As much as everyone wants to deny it, you cant know who you are without knowing what the dark is like.
I fear the dark, inside and outside of me...