magic hours
i see very much eye to eye with davy and richards posts. i never quite acquired much of the christmas spirit this year...i think it comes with aging. . .i just miss the way it used to be- so excited by every little detail of christmas and eating up every moment of it leading up to it and during. the one thing i still do share is the sadness of it being gone, and me being alone at the end of it. i still felt like this portion of the year was the most important, and glorious and all, i just feel like i wasnt able to enter into it totally. its weird how things work.
lately ive been a headcase. im all over the place in my mind. i just cant stop thinking about things and worrying myself. i feel really unsatisfactory in lots of ways. i dont think i like any of the music i've been writing, but that can just be right now. i dont understand it, it confuses me. maybe i just dont like music at all right now. i dont even know. i think im just really tired right now, and thinking too much about everything.
i've been trying to make connections with people, but they are never good enough connections. it seems like i'm not getting anywhere. hopefully one day there will be that one great connection. maybe i just need to strengthen my connection with God.
lately ive been a headcase. im all over the place in my mind. i just cant stop thinking about things and worrying myself. i feel really unsatisfactory in lots of ways. i dont think i like any of the music i've been writing, but that can just be right now. i dont understand it, it confuses me. maybe i just dont like music at all right now. i dont even know. i think im just really tired right now, and thinking too much about everything.
i've been trying to make connections with people, but they are never good enough connections. it seems like i'm not getting anywhere. hopefully one day there will be that one great connection. maybe i just need to strengthen my connection with God.