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I started deleting a bunch of my old rp journals.
I couldn't of told you why at the time, but the longer I kept getting into it...thirty minutes, a hour... the more I realized that i wasn't just the rp characters or journals I wanted to get rid of, it was me. It led to me thinking I wanted to delete more, my facebook, msn and aim emails...and eventually, I somehow come to the thought of you know, you should just cash your last paycheck, take all the money out of the bank and just go.
I wanted to get rid of me.
I stopped there because it freaked me out. If I'm telling myself to up and leave my family, what's really keeping me from telling myself to just up and leave the world?
....I think I have a lot more problems than what I first thought that I was dealing with.
I couldn't of told you why at the time, but the longer I kept getting into it...thirty minutes, a hour... the more I realized that i wasn't just the rp characters or journals I wanted to get rid of, it was me. It led to me thinking I wanted to delete more, my facebook, msn and aim emails...and eventually, I somehow come to the thought of you know, you should just cash your last paycheck, take all the money out of the bank and just go.
I wanted to get rid of me.
I stopped there because it freaked me out. If I'm telling myself to up and leave my family, what's really keeping me from telling myself to just up and leave the world?
....I think I have a lot more problems than what I first thought that I was dealing with.