This is not 'Nam..There are rules
It's 9.30 on a Sunday morning, what the hell am I doing fully functioning at this hour? Been a while since this happened.
I've been trying to balance things out a bit more lately, work been really busy and some days really hard trying to close sales because I still haven't got the art of making myself sound like I'm doing the customer a favour, of course ultimately I am, it's not about the con or 'up selling' where I work but for some reason I cant get the hang of it and unfortunately some days I let it beat me. For this reason I've taken to staying in lately....yes the drunk is taking a break,
By the time Friday came around last week I was ready to drop, going out simply wasn't an option although I did make up for it on Saturday. After a day of sheer relaxation due to having the house to myself (very rare thing here) I finally got hold of Leigh, he picked me up a few hours later and we headed out. Almost everyone was out and of course sprits were high as we beat England!
Then I was invited to step back in to Ivins' world of the 'after show party' this week it was Simon & Kate's turn to play host, I was up for it after all I had a bottle of Jack in the car anyway as the plan was to come back here and stay up all night drinking into sunrise with Leigh anyway.
Now don't get me wrong I enjoy going along to these things, despite all the drugs that fly around Coke, Acid etc... The can be a laugh but for the simple fact that I tend to be the only one not on any drugs (aside from the odd joint) so I'm classed as sober so its ten times funnier for me. Although it does make me think and perhaps how much of an introvert person I can be at times. For some reason at these things I cant relax fully, even when I take what I like to call my half hour 'break' from things where I will just quiet in a corner just thinking and absorbing what's going on around me it never seems to do he trick for me at a house party, weird...
So if this isn't the key for me what have I started doing to relax?
I've reverted back to my films and image work. Last week I watched 21 Grams
like almost every film I watch it brought out my inner psychologist analyzing the last two hours of my life and somehow linking aspects of what I've just sat through the elements of my own life but all I can really say is, if you're a fan of Magnolia you have to check it out, although definately one worth watching on your own to fully absorb it.
Work this work has been a harder push than the week before, I think I closed six where as I'm expected to hit minimum of 20 but I'm not gonna let it get me yet. I signed my life away last week too, in other words my mortgage papers came through. I'm just waiting on a move date from my solicitors now.
It's all starting to sink in now and I'm getting really excited about it I have all these plans and ideas for the place, what’s gonna go where etc... I've convinced Dan to let me have control over the loft conversion and turn into a chill out room, pre-paint it, put my amps and guitars up there with a few of my pictures on the walls a sofa and maybe a lava lamp in the corner with another amp and set of speakers up there too.....the ultimate room for the little getaways I need for when I throw my own house parties? *thinks and smiles*
This weekend I've done bugger all, I haven't been out either nights which might explain the reason why I'm so awake at this hour, yesterday I popped into Newport to pick up a few bits and bobs naturally I ended up not buying what I needed and being succumbed by another random DVD offer, this week I walked away with A Beautiful Mind, Romeo & Juliet and 21 Grams all for £18 bargin!
I've got some more to say but this house is waking up now and I keep getting interrupted, his shared computer lark is doing my head in, it's times like these I get wound up by the fact that I should of been in my house months ago but never mind another few weeks of being patient will have to suffice although patience can only go so far...
I've been trying to balance things out a bit more lately, work been really busy and some days really hard trying to close sales because I still haven't got the art of making myself sound like I'm doing the customer a favour, of course ultimately I am, it's not about the con or 'up selling' where I work but for some reason I cant get the hang of it and unfortunately some days I let it beat me. For this reason I've taken to staying in lately....yes the drunk is taking a break,
By the time Friday came around last week I was ready to drop, going out simply wasn't an option although I did make up for it on Saturday. After a day of sheer relaxation due to having the house to myself (very rare thing here) I finally got hold of Leigh, he picked me up a few hours later and we headed out. Almost everyone was out and of course sprits were high as we beat England!
Then I was invited to step back in to Ivins' world of the 'after show party' this week it was Simon & Kate's turn to play host, I was up for it after all I had a bottle of Jack in the car anyway as the plan was to come back here and stay up all night drinking into sunrise with Leigh anyway.
Now don't get me wrong I enjoy going along to these things, despite all the drugs that fly around Coke, Acid etc... The can be a laugh but for the simple fact that I tend to be the only one not on any drugs (aside from the odd joint) so I'm classed as sober so its ten times funnier for me. Although it does make me think and perhaps how much of an introvert person I can be at times. For some reason at these things I cant relax fully, even when I take what I like to call my half hour 'break' from things where I will just quiet in a corner just thinking and absorbing what's going on around me it never seems to do he trick for me at a house party, weird...
So if this isn't the key for me what have I started doing to relax?
I've reverted back to my films and image work. Last week I watched 21 Grams
like almost every film I watch it brought out my inner psychologist analyzing the last two hours of my life and somehow linking aspects of what I've just sat through the elements of my own life but all I can really say is, if you're a fan of Magnolia you have to check it out, although definately one worth watching on your own to fully absorb it.
Work this work has been a harder push than the week before, I think I closed six where as I'm expected to hit minimum of 20 but I'm not gonna let it get me yet. I signed my life away last week too, in other words my mortgage papers came through. I'm just waiting on a move date from my solicitors now.
It's all starting to sink in now and I'm getting really excited about it I have all these plans and ideas for the place, what’s gonna go where etc... I've convinced Dan to let me have control over the loft conversion and turn into a chill out room, pre-paint it, put my amps and guitars up there with a few of my pictures on the walls a sofa and maybe a lava lamp in the corner with another amp and set of speakers up there too.....the ultimate room for the little getaways I need for when I throw my own house parties? *thinks and smiles*
This weekend I've done bugger all, I haven't been out either nights which might explain the reason why I'm so awake at this hour, yesterday I popped into Newport to pick up a few bits and bobs naturally I ended up not buying what I needed and being succumbed by another random DVD offer, this week I walked away with A Beautiful Mind, Romeo & Juliet and 21 Grams all for £18 bargin!
I've got some more to say but this house is waking up now and I keep getting interrupted, his shared computer lark is doing my head in, it's times like these I get wound up by the fact that I should of been in my house months ago but never mind another few weeks of being patient will have to suffice although patience can only go so far...