sickness
Well im sick again. i have cancer on my cervix for the second time and the doctors dont know what is wrong with me they keep prescribing me all these pills for pain but it just never goes away. so far i have been dating this guy trevor and i like him but im so confused on what i want. i finally finally got over fabian. it felt like the longest time but i did it and it feels good. i dont have to stress anymore about him not one single bit more. but i swear if i have one more friend like maranda martin and chelsea mcCorkely im going to scream. I am really sick this time. Im scared kinda actually because i dont know what is wrong with me and neither do the doctors but if nothing is wrong with me........... then why do i hurt so much and why am i in pain so much. i feel like i just kinda became a rock. and well i dont know i miss alot of my old friends and some i just wish i never knew. but that is ok. but oh well... I wish i just knew what was wrong with me that is all. yesterday i had a fever for over 8hours and my friend casey came over and helped me out i guess. he is a good friend. always there for me and me there for him. i got my hair cut to my shoulders and its a reddish brownish. so i dont know.