troubles
Well the thing is fabian and me went apart on bad terms. I fell bad for saying how much i hate him and how i never want him to call me again. I dont know what i want now. I lied to him saying that i pretty much had a boyfriend when i really didnt. I told him.. i was just really mean to him. then i started crying cuz it got to me. I keep teilling myself to be strong and i wont allow myself to feel this pain and this reality.
I dont know at this point. I feel horrible and empty and sick. I dont want to give up and i dont want to be a failor but fuck what am i supposed to do. i mean i honestly am sick of guys right now but at the same time want to be with someone but am forcing myself to not feel this depressed right now. i dont know I just sleep alot and try to forget about him and i told him i was going to to just burn his picture so i would just forget him but i cant its feelign almost impossible at this point.
I dont know at this point. I feel horrible and empty and sick. I dont want to give up and i dont want to be a failor but fuck what am i supposed to do. i mean i honestly am sick of guys right now but at the same time want to be with someone but am forcing myself to not feel this depressed right now. i dont know I just sleep alot and try to forget about him and i told him i was going to to just burn his picture so i would just forget him but i cant its feelign almost impossible at this point.