mixed emotions
ok soo I'm feeling a couple of diffrent things at once.
I feel Loved...because i woke up this morning to find mom( Royce's mom that i call mom too) at my dorr holding a reciept in her hand. She gave it to me say "I just bought you a yearbook." Omgoodness i have never felt so loved in my life , I started to feel tears. She is so dear to me I mean ever since I've meet her she has beeen more of a mom to me than my own.I wish i could pay her back for all the things she has giving me, but i dont know if anything will be good enough for her.
I feel confused....I just dont know who I am or what Gods wants me to be. I guess this senior thing is really hitting rite now. Where do I go to college? Will I make it to college? What will happen to my friends? Will we still be friends?Am I really ready for this? I don't know I'm just soo confused....
I also feel sadden....The boy I like say that he thinks he has found that one girl the he is will to give up anything to be with her and you know what i don't thinks it me.I like him so much. A soon as I find myself one guy that makes the thought of being with him makes my stomach tie up in knots.Every time i see him or think about him I can't help but smile. So yeah i guess I have to wait till its my turn or wait till some guys to like or sumthing. I dunno.... all i kno is i really like him but i cant have him. My heart dreaks a lil mor eevery time i think bout this whole him not liking me back deal........
I feel Loved...because i woke up this morning to find mom( Royce's mom that i call mom too) at my dorr holding a reciept in her hand. She gave it to me say "I just bought you a yearbook." Omgoodness i have never felt so loved in my life , I started to feel tears. She is so dear to me I mean ever since I've meet her she has beeen more of a mom to me than my own.I wish i could pay her back for all the things she has giving me, but i dont know if anything will be good enough for her.
I feel confused....I just dont know who I am or what Gods wants me to be. I guess this senior thing is really hitting rite now. Where do I go to college? Will I make it to college? What will happen to my friends? Will we still be friends?Am I really ready for this? I don't know I'm just soo confused....
I also feel sadden....The boy I like say that he thinks he has found that one girl the he is will to give up anything to be with her and you know what i don't thinks it me.I like him so much. A soon as I find myself one guy that makes the thought of being with him makes my stomach tie up in knots.Every time i see him or think about him I can't help but smile. So yeah i guess I have to wait till its my turn or wait till some guys to like or sumthing. I dunno.... all i kno is i really like him but i cant have him. My heart dreaks a lil mor eevery time i think bout this whole him not liking me back deal........