I'M SICK OF PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT TO DO AND HOW I FEEL!!!!

[murphymermaid]

well thanks leann for telling me what i should do. whatever you think, you DID get me to do this, you gave me that extra push, other wise i know i never would have done it. and what is this shit that i am cheating on sean, i'm not even with him. he hates me and never talks to me except to get money and past gifts he's given me, returned to him. i'm

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[unit_ee]

if what i say looks glamorous then you must be an idiot, because it was all straightforward. PS I NEVER SAID U WERE BEING ANTI SOCIAL, I SAID U WERE ALLIENATING YOURSELF FROM PEOPLE. DONT PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH....maybe u should figure out the meaning of alienation and the act of being anti social.... u didnt intentionally allienate yourself obviously, but you did by your actions. since i hang out with everyone at once, bringing you along wouldnt really make anyone too happy since they are all your enemies...and my parents dont want me to hang out with you so its hard to sneak around..which i would do but i was grounded for a month which has left ONE WEEK after that to hang out with you, which i did come over to nates apartment on monday night when i was tired as hell.. and i enjoyed it because i enjoy you as a person and a friend. YOU SAID ALL YOU DO IS GO HOME TO GET CLOTHES AND YOU BASICALLY LIVE THERE...so obviously your there a lot...SO WHOS TELLING LIES? im just going by what u say. GIVING A GUY A HANDJOB WHILE U HAVE A BOYFRIEND IS CHEATING, AS FAR AS IM CONCERNED...but if u think its differnt. ok. i tried to push you to do something rather then sneak around behind seans back and be unhappy with someone you dont like, thats what i wanted you to do, that was my intention. but i also wasnt going to stop you because you are a person with free will to do what u please just as i am...if ive come off differnt, fuck it, if one of my best friends cant understand where im coming from then im not going to worry about it anymore. this all started with the snow day and susie not calling you because she was afraid u would act pissy because we were hanging out with tom instead..i dont blame her because you make people feel guilty when they leave you out, even if its out of their hands or unintentional. not to mention susie was disgusted that you were sitting at mcdonalds for lack of anything better to do and trying to make her feel guilty about it (which she thought was your intention). thats pathetic. i dont tell people what to do, ive given my advice to you and anyone else who acts open to hearing what i have to say. if you thought i was telling you what to do, you must not be too secure with your own actions because no one tells me what to do unless i wasnt thinking right and they were, in which case i choose to comply. your idea of being friends is going along with their shit. i think your a cool person, but at this point im not going to side with you simply because we get along. (EITHER YOUR MY FRIENDS OR YOUR NOT, STOP PLAYING THESE GIRL GAMES AND TELLING ME DIFFERENT THINGS TELL ME THE FUCKEN TRUTH WITH OUT GLAMORIZEING IT OR GETTING INTO WHAT I SHOULD DO AND THAT I FEEL THIS WAY BECAUSE MY PSYC IS BLA BLA BLA. I ALWAYS WANT THE TRUTH, NON OF THESE WHITE LIES, THEY ARE TO CONFUSEING.)
you want the truth if its for your benefit. clearly sean didnt deserve it when u were telling tom to lie for you about where you were. sean also didnt deserve to know that you were spending time with nate when u said u werent? thats bullshit that im not supporting. i want the truth for truth/moralities sake. not because i think i deserve it but no one else does.
you are the epidomy of highschool girl games. im not bitching. im stating my stance...and i always have. if you think that cheating on ur bf of 3 yrs and tearing groups of friends apart and then saying how everyone else isnt a true friend because u made it REALLY AWKWARD for the middle man to be at peace with both sides of the drama..isnt highschool games, then i dont know what is.
i never said i know more than you and just because im in highschool doesnt mean i cant know more then another person about how to be a good individual. look at some of the stupid highschoolers at our school, i would hope you thought you knew more then them, i know i do...at least with some. if you think that highschool defines your brain copacity and how much you can know in comparison to someone else then thats sad.
i dont want to be a therapist, especially to someone who needs help sometimes and wont take it from a friend.

if all that ^ was glamorous/confusing, then i dont know how else to say my honest opinion, cos its all right there.