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[murky_past]

Help me... Someone... please... I can't go on like this....
Be calm. It'll be ok. He's fine. He's safe...
.....
..What are you doing?
Nothing... I'm fine...
Look at you. You're taking apart a razor to get at the blade. You're not fine!
Lonely... so lonely...
Put that down...
Someone help me... ah!
Look at you... What do you think this will solve?
So quiet.... everything stops... why won't it bleed?
The razor is dull. Good... It's better that way
No! No it's not! It's better THIS way!
.........
....why can't I make it bleed? I want to bleed... God, I can't take it anymore! Let me die! I just want to die!
You can't die. You have to work in the morning...
So lonely... So lonely... Someone help me... someone stop me... No... no... let me go.... so tired... I want to rest...
Clean yourself up.... it'll be ok. Just rest. Just sleep
Someone... help....
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.....!! Someone's coming!!
Let them come....
Get up you fool!
Let them find me...
You're a mess! Get up, they'll lock you away!
Let them come... It's better that way...
....the footsteps... They're fading....
It was not for me...
Shhh... Rest. It'll be ok
I'm a coward... I can't even cut through my own flesh... I want out. I want blood, I want release...
Rest... rest... All will be ok
So lonely....