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i must walk home posthaste to clean my room for my mother's birthday/oscar party on sunday. i work all day tomorrow so alas, i will have no time to make the cake i promised. to use the bathroom in our duplex, one has to walk through my room, hence the cleaning.
kyle is coming up tonight. haven't seen him for at least three weeks. we've been trying this open relationship thing but i don't think he's taking me dating other people very well. apparently he's hooked up with others but is reluctant to share details and i'm reluctant to ask for them. regardless, he claims not to have enojoyed it. i'm not sure if i should feel guilty for starting a life here in corvallis when we agreed that was best for us both. he needs his own life in eugene as well, social and otherwise. he's still my top priority; i will drop any and all plans to spend time with him. all but work that is, which prevents me from visiting eugene. but i'm not going to vagina monologues tonight so i can see him, and no, i don't consider that an act of martyrdom. i'm not that selfish and dumb. i genuinely do want to see him more than any other boy and even though i think he kind of understands that, it's still tough. i'm not sure if we're doing the right thing here. and no, that wasn't a plea for advice. really.
working fifty hours this week. 's good, need the hours, etc. still don't miss school. but i do miss having other activities in my life. i think i'll take up ice skating. and i'll build a house. and make a movie. anyone want to fund me?
love.
kyle is coming up tonight. haven't seen him for at least three weeks. we've been trying this open relationship thing but i don't think he's taking me dating other people very well. apparently he's hooked up with others but is reluctant to share details and i'm reluctant to ask for them. regardless, he claims not to have enojoyed it. i'm not sure if i should feel guilty for starting a life here in corvallis when we agreed that was best for us both. he needs his own life in eugene as well, social and otherwise. he's still my top priority; i will drop any and all plans to spend time with him. all but work that is, which prevents me from visiting eugene. but i'm not going to vagina monologues tonight so i can see him, and no, i don't consider that an act of martyrdom. i'm not that selfish and dumb. i genuinely do want to see him more than any other boy and even though i think he kind of understands that, it's still tough. i'm not sure if we're doing the right thing here. and no, that wasn't a plea for advice. really.
working fifty hours this week. 's good, need the hours, etc. still don't miss school. but i do miss having other activities in my life. i think i'll take up ice skating. and i'll build a house. and make a movie. anyone want to fund me?
love.